Dawn~*

Thank you everybody for the support you guys gave me when I was feeling really really down.

All the tags (KAREN!, Christina, Joyce, Anonymous, Zuhui, Cindy, Yeeyan, Tiffany, Kannex, Jun)
Thank you guys, I really appreciate all the encouragement and concern you guys gave me! ^_^

And of course, the msges! (KAREN!, Kannex, Yeeyan, Yihang, L (guess for yourself who that person is. =X)
Thanks! I feel really really touched to see the msges. :D

Oh and not to forget, KAREN for the encouraging mails and Junxiu for asking me if I'm ok.


THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

I don't know what else to say other than 本当にありがとう！！！[Thank you very much!]


Right now, with the support I have, with the concern and love of my best-est buddies, I feel that I can carry on. :)




Although

I'm not strong,
I'm not perfect,
I'm not the smartest,
I'm not the best,
I have my weaknesses,
I cannot hold back my tears sometimes,



I yearn to become stronger.



To become stronger, and tell myself that

"Even in the darkest nights, dawn will still come."


And believe in it.

powerless~*

I want to protect the things in my hands.
But when it comes to doing that, my hands become powerless.

Decided to take a break.



Honestly, I need to go and search for the pieces of myself.
And piece myself back together again.


I want to move forward, but end up taking a step back.

I'm really a shit-head. A coward. A powerless person.

I look into the mirror and see an ordinary girl with extraordinary amount of sadness in her eyes.

A person can never return to the same place.
Because somehow, something must've changed about the place since the last time you went there.


URGH.


And I'm not even sure why I'm feeling this way.


(The blogskin gives me creeps. That's why it's my blogskin.)

Depressed~*

I think nothing sucks more than my life at the moment.

If I'm not replying your msges, please understand.


Understand that as much as I wish to believe I'm strong, I'm not.

Taiyou no Namida~*

Watch till the very end! :)

updates + random pics!~*

Mood: ...
Music: Dearest by Ayumi Hamasaki


Don't listen to the words.
You listen to the silence in between the words.

They mean much more.



1. WE LOST.

Alright. Although we lost the 'Telepathy' game, our friendship of 8 years is undeniable. :D:D
Ruzi, correct??? hahaha.

We can be 'giam' about everything, but definitely not when it comes to the amount of care, concern and love we give each other!

(btw, we lost terribly in the CHARADE section. T^T but Q&A was AWESOME! :D)



2. AJC CROSS-COUNTRY

Yesterday was the annual x-country.
Well, now that I think about it, I realized it will be the very last x-country I attend. T^T

Anyway, Rebecca, Siew Ping, Siew Boon, Kah Ying, Junxiu, Cheryl Tang, Joyce, Rina, Pei Yun, Wenshi, Ruzi and I had Mac for lunch! (delivery) :D

Overall, x-c'try was pretty fun. (minus the part of Wenyu falling down (poor girl... I hope she's fine now) and the uncountable number of flies and creepy crawlies)

Well, as expected, I DIDN'T RUN!
Actually, I did run a little.
But after Wenyu fell down, Chenxi, Rina and I accompanied her to the side and waited for First Aid.

So in the end, I walked/ran for less than 1km? haha.

While the First Aid team was attending to Wenyu, Eugene ran past me and gave me the 'SLACKING?!?!?!' look and I gave him the 'YEA RIGHT' look and pointed to Wenyu.

Anyway, in the end we walked back to the first aid tent and Chenxi, Rina, Wenyu and my electronic tag numbers were striked off.

After x-country, Siew Ping, Junxiu and I went for dinner together~! :D
We were making a fool of ourselves by wandering around in search of a foodcourt. (it was under renovation and we didn't know ^^;;. We even mistook the arcade as foodcourt! XD)
In the end we ended up at Yoshinoya. ^^
Was gossiping about... well, me and a SUPER RIDICULOUS PAIRING. =___=;;;
But I sure had lots of fun with the 2 of them. :D

Oh, and we even ran into Ruzi, Wenshi and their friends at J8! XD



3. DEATH NOTE

To sum up what happened, Peiyun, Ruzi, Wenshi and I laughed for nearly an hour straight because of a Youth Olympics Games pamphlet.

You might think there's no link btw the pamplet and death note, but you never know! XD




4. V-day!

Had V-day gift exchange with 22/07 peeps. :)

I got Siew Boon's present and Joyce got mine!

And received presents from friends! :D

Thank you everyone, who msged me/gave me presents.

大好きです～！^_^

Well, it's yet another V-day spent without a partner

しかし。。。

I know I'm ひとりじゃない！^_^Y

[but...

I know I'm not alone!]



5. SCHOOL

Next week is gonna be a super busy/sucky week.

sigh.



6. JEFF CHANG

I'm dead serious about wanting to go to Jeff Chang's concert!
http://www.unusual.com.sg/jeff_chang.html

You won't believe how crazy I was over him (back when my age was single digit)

So... anyone wants to go with me? ;)




7. THURSDAY

Had dinner with Huili, Ruzi and Wenshi at Lot one.

Played 'Shi we jie long', which means 'food...chain' (O_O??)
haha. Anyway, I was really full after eating all those stuff.

XD



8. CNY

A few days left to get all the red packets you want. XD

So in total, I visited Zuhui, Angela, Joyce, Yeeyan and Serene's house.
(too bad couldn't visit Wenshi and Ruzi's. tsk)

Oh, and I still have LOTS of new year goodies left.



9. CURRYPOK

Poor poor currypok fell ill on V-day and didn't come to school on X-country + Total Defence day.

Ahh... Take really good care of yourself ok?
I want to see a lively and 元気 curry pok aka ka-ceng bin on Mon ok? ^_^



10. ONLINE GAMES

I'm nuts over IQ + braincells-killing games.

Currently at level 65 out of 150 levels of this game called 'Never Ending Game'.
It's so time consuming + brain draining, I swear that my brain can't function properly after playing it. @_@

Here it is:

http://www.escapegames24.com/2008/01/never-ending-level-game.html

Challenge yourself.

And see whether you're smarter than Ruzi+Wenshi+Me. XD




Random pictures~!

Sing Hun's birthday~*

:D:D:D

The pencil case we gave her. PRETTY RIGHT? ^_^

CNY~*

SMILES!

I love this picture (currently the wallpaper of my phone. ^_^)

I took this picture.
So cool right? :D

This is what I do when I get bored of playing Daidee with my cousins.
Anyway, whose picture do you see on my cards?
XD

Another artistic picture. :)
(But I'm pretty much faceless in it. ^^;;)

Serene's masterpiece! haha
Mine was destroyed. T_T (you can see it in the background)

SCRABBLE!
in AWFULLY NONSENSICAL ENGLISH.
XD
(I suggest you don't enlarge it to read the words.)

haha now you know why so many people praised my phone. haha.
Cool picture.
Joyce + Jasmine LOVE Serene + Yeeyan :D

CNY eve reunion dinner with family! :D

One reason why I love CNY is because that's probably the only time my entire family sits down and eat together. *sad smile*

SCHOOL~*

Wenshi gave us these cute biscuits! :D

Currypok's HUGE plate of Sheng Mian. O_O

Ruzi can't live without this ^

FANDOM~*

haha O_O
Ayu back in 1998, when she just debuted.
So pretty and sweet looking. ^_^

AND FINALLY....

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NOTTI!!!~*

(Return to NEWS soon, will you? T^T)

Reply to tags!!!!!!

Karen~* yes it is VERY random. hahaha. I LOVE ARAGAKI YUI. ^_^ I realized it's a bad idea to reply tags at one go cos I always forget what I want to tag. So I might as well just reply on the board itself next time. haha. Anyway, thanks for the mail and msges! :D Rest assured. And let's have faith in a future we can't see yet. It DEFINITELY exists. :D


Kin~* you know what? I didn't want to reply your comment on hairy armpits. XD AHEM. Anyway, you wishing me belated v-day is like me wishing you belated cny. =___= LAMO!


Jun~* GF?! OHHHH. HAHAHA maybe cos you look too young already? or too 不正经 le. XD And how did you spend your V-day? *winks*


Tiffany~* haha do you celebrate lunar new year there? and you're really random!


Christina~* Hey thanks! No la... I think I look old. ^^;; Anyway, I talk to him more now, you see. haha. Oh and you're the one who looks great in ANYTHING you wear. :)


Ruzi~* EIGHT YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP! SO WHAT IF WE LOST THAT CHARADE RIGHT?! hahaha. The fact that we found each other after 4 years means a lot to us right? :)


Mou~* Your birthday is coming in 10 days' time! :D


Serene~* YOU BAKA HEAD. You know how difficult it is to reply ur tags?! haha. Ok.
Firstly, I like her songs! Her songs are really really nice. But the way she sings is difficult to be accepted by people. but nevermind. I still like! :D She's very very pretty too!
Secondly, you still rmb i got a blog? HAHAHA. yeah. but hers cos her hair is straight. mine cos my hair looks like toilet brush. =___=
Thirdly, yes it is very funny! haha in fact, all her CMs are funny. HEHEHE.
Fourth, YAH LA YAH LA!!! And the dance steps are fine UNTIL the 'Taiyou no namida~~~' part. it looks really funny. XP
Fifth, yes I think I'm nuts. But he's really really nice, you know?!?!?! haha. If he's reading this, I think I can just die.
Sixth, you're so cute.
Seventh, the problem is that the VIKI guy is a GUY. A MAN. in the home for the disabled. O_O yes many people find me fierce, you know? HAHAHAHAHAHA. TIMES HAVE CHANGED~!~!
Eighth, yah. but my birthday is tml.

Lastly, I LOVE THE GIFT YOU GAVE MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D
I'll cherish it very very very very much. ^_^ Y

updates~*

I.




WANT.






TO....

BLOODY SLEEP MY DAYS AWAY

(I ABSOLUTELY ADORE this picture taken by Yours Truly. *GRINS*)

It's CNY!
And it's going to be over soon!

The happiness is really short-lived. T_T


"Tml's CNY EVE!"

"Tml's CNY!"

"Tml's CNY DAY 2!"

...

...

"School reopens tml!"


T_T




1. I've got TONS of random pictures to post here but I'm too lazy to do so. ^_^



2. I've got TONS of things to update but I'm too lazy to do so as well. ^_^




So let me summarize what happened in the past few days.



0.5. Celebrated Sing Hun's birthday!
1. Recovered from fever
2. Got interrogated by many people regarding my status (single? in a relationship?)
3. Had dinner at Cafe Cartel with my sis, her bf and my 2 cousins.
4. Visited Angela, Zuhui, Joyce and Yeeyan's houses.
5. Grumbled about school reopen
6. Nearly died when I realized the external memory's DEAD.
7. Had fun at Interact on CNY eve
8. Going to have the 'Telepathy' competition with Ruzi tomorrow!!!!!!!!!
9. Had a reasonable amount of fun on CNY day 1, 2, 3 and 4.
10. Played a super difficult brain-draining game in the library with the help of Eugene. (LOL!)
11. Nearly died after Chem SPA.
12. Reading a very sweet book entitled 'History of Love'.
13. Starting to become friends with my sister's bf
14. Bought the Valentine's Day present for tml's Valentine's Day present exchange~! ^_^
15. Developed a love-hate relationship with school and piano.


Alright. That pretty much sums up the past few days of my lives.


Really boring.



I promise a proper entry the next time round. :)


Oh, and

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KAKEI!!~*

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE!!!~*



By the way, tml's VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

Well, who said it's special only if you have a significant counterpart?

SINGLES UNITE! XD

LOVES~*

HAPPY CNY!~*

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!


Thank goodness I recovered from my 38.6 degrees ULTRA HIGH FEVER.
(I shocked the crap out of my parents btw. ^^;;)


Just reached home from my uncle's house.


I've got lots to update.
But for now, I'll just talk about CNY.


It was fun, minus the part of me carrying a jacket and a bag of medicine around like an idiot.


My sister brought her bf to my uncle's house today. :D
And everyone was commenting on how handsome he looks.
(I have to admit, he's really good looking. haha.)


And HIS CAR IS BLOODY GORGEOUS AND NEW.
(he drove my sister and me there, btw)



It seems like the uncles and aunts like to talk about boyfriends and girlfriends.
About a million people came up to me and asked the same question.



"Wan Qin, do you have a boyfriend now?"

or

"Wan Qin, where's your boyfriend?"


Jasmine: No, I don't have one. ^_^


"WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! HOW CAN IT BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"



And no. I'm not exaggerating.



Then they started asking my cousins to introduce boys to me. LOL! (90% of my cousins are male)



"Yi Liang, you got girlfriend right? So introduce a boy to Wan Qin!"

"I have no girlfriend ^^;;"

"WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"



hahaha... And they started asking me out of my cousins, who do I fancy most.

Thank goodness someone interrupted and changed the subject.
Or else...



Anyway, then they started asking my cousins if they like girls like me.




Alright.

I'm not going to talk about the other conversations we had and the fact that we watched a M18 show (IT IS PORN) together and the fact that they were fighting the crap out of one another in PS. (well, that's what you get when your cousins are all guys and the only female cousin you have is in Malaysia AND your sister is at her boyfriend's grandparents' place. -___-)

haha but it was fun la. And they really cared a lot for me. (due to the fact that I'm the youngest AND the only girl there)



And all along, I've always had a favourite cousin. (and he's good looking too!) :)

You're always there when I need you.
Always know what I'm thinking.
When I'm feeling uneasy, you'll definitely know.

You always care about what I feel, what I think.

The panadol and the bottle of water you gave me yesterday (I didn't need to say anything)
And everything you did for me today...

Thank you~! ^_^

I think whichever girl who ends up being your girlfriend will be very very lucky! :D




Alright. My entire weekend is super packed.
I'm afraid I can't find a day to complete my homework!

T_T



Anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AGAIN!!

恋空~*

Koizora~*

Just finished watching this movie.

And I probably cried twenty litres of tears.


At the ending scene, the tears just flowed uncontrollably.


And what's more important is that it's actually based on a true story.



Such a bittersweet and touching story.
The story is basically very simple, but it can really dig deep into your heart and rip it into pieces.
And then mend your heart all over again.


*sigh happily*


Don't forget that this movie will be screening in SINGAPORE!!!
So please please please remember to watch it!

And you'll totally get what I mean. :)


A trailer to let you know what is it about :)

"I want to be the sky. So that I can watch over you..."

"Yes. Even now, I'm still in love with the sky..."

Pretty girls~*

(Click to enlarge)

One of the pictures from Ayu's 'Guilty' photobook.
(I'll upload one at a time. ^^;;)
Well, she looks GORGEOUS here. haha. I think not everyone will be able to pull off the fluffy yellow outfit. XD

-Credit to AHS forum.

And now, something really funny and cute. :)

CM - Pocky Ver.[DANCE DANCE]
Uploaded by J-CM

-featuring Aragaki Yui~*

life and pictures~*

A walk to AJC, accompanied by daybreak...~*

Mood: Exhausted
Music: LIFE by Desree


Did you see my tears in the dark?
The tears which flowed uncontrollably.
The tears. Honest. Bitter. Painful.
In the dark, lonely night.


Alright. I'm here to give a proper update. :)

Life has been BUSY.
Really, really busy.

Though I have absolutely no idea what I was busy doing. =/


1. WENSHI (SSB)'s 18th BIRTHDAY~!

All I can say is that Peiyun, Currypok and I spent about 1/4 of our life searching for her present. (ok. maybe not that long. But still.)


STUPID SSB! >.<

The beautiful card Ruzi made!
Once again, I destroyed it with the horrible 'Sheng ri kuai le' smack right in the middle of the card. ^^;;

The very long note I wrote for Wenshi! haha.

'WS'! Really, it should be 'JS'. =X

SWEETS!!!
Wenshi said they're very nice! haha.
They're Japanese sweets btw. ^_^

Ahem. As for the awful final product, I'll leave it to your imagination! :D

Awww~ Wenshi loves the presents! :D

18 years old already~! haha. OLD ALREADY.
But still, stay youthful, happy, smart, stitch-y, healthy, cute (YUCKS) forever!
Forever 18! hahaha. :D:D
Love you, SSB!!! <3

Loves~* :D
(btw, Ruzi looks like she's biting my finger and I look like I'm biting hers! hahaha.)

2. CLARRISA'S BIRTHDAY LUNCH~~~

Ahhh... for some reasons, my external memory's down. :(

Which means, there are tons of things I can't watch, listen to, post here. :(

I strongly believe in karma, I guess. Because I rmb distinctly that I was laughing at Ruzi for destroying her external memory. >.<

But thank goodness there are still some photos in my phone. :)

Pizza Hut with clique~*
(I realized that my pink water bottle is very eye catching! haha.)

3. Had REEEEAAAALLLLYYYY swollen eyes this morning.

So I was trying not to catch anyone's eyes until afternoon, when my double eyelids come out.
(fyi, my double eyelids come out at noon. ^^;;)

4. Had some GP rally stuff last week (or was it this week???)
Anyway, I belong to the COMMUNIST PARTY~!~!~! (with Wenshi, Samantha, Rina and Cheryl Tang)

Yes! PEACE LAND BREAD!!!

haha. the speech was hilarious, considering how I was trying to be dramatic. Ruzi said I looked like I was presenting OP. XD

But in the end, the SOCIALISTS WON.

Well, socialists and communists promised to share seats. HEH.


We all shared the chips (the prize) in the end. ^_^



5. Had like... 8789750000 tests.

The worst of all is the ESSAY TEST.

Goodness.




6. Went to KFC for lunch with Currypok, Ruzi and Wenshi today~!

Prosperity meal~!~!~!
(Currypok is just extra. HAHA)

The auntie was really really nice to us!
She gave us free refill for our plain water and even offered to help me fill my water bottle. ^_^

Disgusting Ruzi just can't wait to eat.
(and she spoilt the pic)

The chicken! And the 2 original ones are the ones for me. ^_^
The rest are crispy.

Had a really enjoyable time there. haha.
We were crapping and laughing ALL THE TIME.


:D

7. INSTANT NOODLES WITH RUZI~!

FINALLY, I managed to fulfil my promise --- eat instant noodles after school.
It was Tuesday after math extra lessons.

I tell you, I was practically dying already. It was such a long day... lectures... tutorials...

urgh.

So... had to replenish my energy by having instant noodles with RUZI!

My chicken flavoured and Ruzi's seafood flavoured noodles! ^_^

I know. If Junxiu were to see this picture, she would probably be saying, "AIYO! Don't put the chopsticks like that!!!' XDXD

Anw, poor Wenshi had to wait for us. AHAHAHAHA.


Btw, during that time, we kept complaining how sticky we felt cos we had PE in the morning.

And Wenshi said this really funny thing.

Jasmine: Hey. Sweets, anyone?? :)
Ruzi: I want!!!
Wenshi: 吃吃吃。。。都已经那么粘了还吃糖！还嫌不够多蚂蚁吗？！？！？！？！？！
[EAT WHAT EAT. Already so sticky still eat sweets! You want to attract more ants is it?!?!?!?!?!?!]


NO LINK

Totally.



Ruzi and I were stunned for a few seconds before bursting into laughter.


Wenshi must have eaten up her brain.


Then we all started talking illogical things. XD


Jas: 天气都那么热了。。。为什么还不吃辣椒酱？！？！
Wenshi: 我们吃 icecream 吧。因为昨天有做‘摆家乐’。


I forgot what Ruzi said.

But since I can't remember, it's definitely not funny. HAHAHAHAHA! =X




8. CNY IS COMINGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


AND I HAVE INTERACT DUTY ON CNY EVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



alright.

Doing good deeds on CNY eve is GOOD. :)


Going back to NANHUA???? ^_~




9. I realized that I'll have to be stronger.

Strong enough to allow people to lean on me when they need to.


:)





10. I have to be a little gentler because Viki from Cheshire Home said I'm fierce. T_T


Viki: Jasmine flower! You're fierce, you know?!?!
Jas: FIERCE?!?!?!?! *STARES AT VIKI*
Viki: Yes.... O.O
Jas: Ahem. oh ok fine.
Viki: Jasmine flower? Can help me take iced water? :D
Jas: NO.
Viki: If you help me, I won't call u fierce anymore :D:D


sigh.


Viki: Hey, isn't Jasmine flower the flower which has the ghost?
Jas: Pontianak???
Viki: yes yes!
Jas: nono. that's not jasmine flower.
Viki: But you do look like a pontianak.


SIGH SIGH.

11. Fandom:

I LIKE ARAGAKI YUI A LOT A LOT A LOT!!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yui_Aragaki

I mean, she's really really sweet and pretty!

Aragaki Yui~*

I know it sounds crazy but I've been listening to nothing but her songs for quite some time already. haha.

And I'm DEFINITELY watching 'KOIZORA'. :D
(It's coming to Singapore in March!!!)



Random pictures:

Currypok mugging~*
(she fell asleep eventually.)

Waterbottles galore~!
(Ruzi's hand spoilt it again! I have another clearer picture, but it's vertical. :( )

:D~*

Random 2: Went out with Wenshi to look for SIA's birthday present!!!
This is crazy. I've been buying presents for people like there's no tml.
BROKE~!~!~! T_T


Random 3: I. Found. The. Book.

'Catcher In the Rye'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!