Life, oh life~*

Really natural pictures that I found of Ayu and BoA. :)

Mood: life! oh... life! *sings*

Music: Life by DES'REE

Life indeed can be fun, if you really want to

-Life by Des'ree.

What does life mean to you?

A journey that we have to go through? The most cherished thing in your life? Or just waking up and doing what you're supposed to do?

To me, I always think that we have to search for our own meaning in living.

Be it to love, to be loved, to enjoy all the delicious cuisines in the world, to work, to help others, to change the world, or to just dream, to fulfil a dream, they're what we're living for.

One fine day, we find ourselves alive in this world that's created by us. And walking on this path chosen by us. As much as we dread taking the next step, we still have to move on.

Human beings are fleeting.

But, they are also very strong.

While we live, we will feel like giving up. We constantly feel like everything that lie in front of our eyes is as fleeting as we are. Perhaps. Who knows?

Yah, who knows?

So what if we fall down? We can always stand up again. =)

Everything around us is about perspectives.

Like the song you're listening to right now. (well, that is, if you're listening to the song on my imeen playlist. ^^;;)

Life.... oh life.

I can choose to live my life that way. Waking up to a bright morning, drinking coffee while sitting on my favourite couch, reading my favourite book, listening to Ayumi, then going out for a walk in the afternoon, grab a sandwich at 7-11, take a short nap in the late afternoon, blog in the evening, have dinner at night, then tucking in at 10pm sharp.

Wonderful, isn't it?

Then, at that moment, life will seem like a piece of cake. What's there to worry about?

But unfortunately, reality is not always so sympathetic towards us. 残念でした！

So facing the harsh reality, as long as we tell ourselves never to give up, as long we change our perspectives towards this sucky life, this sucky life will no longer seem as sucky as before.

"Hey, Jasmine, has your life become happier than before?"

haha unfortunately no. Just that the way I view life changed.

Maybe it's just for a few days, a few weeks or so, but at least, I'm trying to change my perspectives towards many things.

Sometimes, all we need to do is to take a step back. We'll be able to see clearer than we ever had.

It has been pouring the whole day.

Rain triggers my thoughts. My mind runs while when it rains. haha.

Maybe that's why I'm writing such a strange entry. haha.

Anyway, rain is like life.

It can make you sick, dirty, sticky and uncomfortable.

But it's essential.

And when you take a step back, peer out of your window after the rain, you'll see the pretty things that you've never seen before. Everything looks refreshed.

Rain cleans up the world.

That's why I love rainy days. =)

Oh oh. But I love rainy days more when I'm not outside. XD

What does life mean to you?

I'm searching for an answer right now.

Do you have an answer? Whatever that answer is, cherish it. ;)

alive.is.beautiful~*

Mood: not bad

Music: Koi Shiyou by Leah Dizon





Demise. Demise. Demise.





1.

I feel ALIVE the first time in many days.

Alright.



1. Diarrhoea since tues (keyword here is SINCE)

2. Fever on wed.

3. Headache since wed.

4. Dizziness on tues, wed and thurs.

5. High stress level.



But today, I'm feeling SOOOO much better.



:]



I thought I was going to die last night. seriously. X_X



so　皆さん, please cherish your health. ^^;;



2.

The Pervertic Club makes me so "HIGH TENSION". ^_^;;

Laughed my head off today during PE, when we kept talking about wooden rods and what not. haha. and they all originated from my experience with a pervert on the bus. (do you remember, SERENE?!?! XD)



And I'm being labelled the "pervertic president" and I doubt I'll EVER get rid of that awful nickname. haha.





3.

Went home with Wenshi, Huili, Wendy, and Huili's friend.

had such a good laugh.

HAHAHA. and they must ALWAYS talk about sensitive issues on the train. -___-"""



oh and please don't start worrying too much or your hair will drop even faster, Huili and Wenshi. XDXDXD go on, eat more FACAI, black sesame and DRINK MORE MILK! haha.





4.

I'm feeling pretty worried for Mr Lim these days.

Seems like his health condition is not very good, ね？



速くrecover!! ^_^





5.

Still working on my money-saving scheme.

Though I've spent way too much than planned. ^^;;

(it's all thanks to the horrible illness I've gotten. totally thwarted my plan.)





6.

This morning, I woke up with a start. with an entirely new perception of life.



"I'm alive for one more day."



And for the first time in my whole 17years alive, I feel fortunate to be alive.

Although life is still as shitty, I feel that it's a huge thing to be able to be alive for one more day.



"I'm. Still. Here."



I repeated that to myself, as I walked to the station.



So what if I was having a horrible stomachache?

So what if I missed the train?

So what if I still have a million and one things to study?

So what if nothing about me changed for the better?



I'm still alive.



And as long as I'm alive...,



as long as I'm alive,



I can find a way out of troubles.



=)





7.

The sickness must have sucked the sanity out of me. XD





8.

On the train, I thought to myself, "Everyone's really beautiful."



I looked around. The people, the objects, everything.

I saw the undeniable truth.

That everything's so beautiful.


Not just a mirage. Not a facade. Not a lie.


YOU, the person reading this right now, ARE beautiful too. :)



本当に美い。


Because being alive is beautiful. (cliche as it sounds.)

9.

Wherever you may look

you’re not gonna find a person who is perfect from the start

that’s because anyone born in this world

walks their path in a different way



When we walk a new road

it’s normal to be hesitant

The road my lead to answers or questions

but you simply have to believe in yourself...






-Born in this world by Ueto Aya













10.




I want everyone around me to smile.

The most innocent, the purest, the sweetest smile.



=)






Random1: AYU'S NEW PANASONIC LUMIX CM IS OUT!!!

http://panasonic.jp/dc/gallery/cm/index.html


Random2:
I was thinking how come this video has like... 193,981 views. O.O
then I watched it.
and I understood why.




Who...

Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki

(one my ultimate favourites. ^_^ one of the few ayu songs which made me cry)


(Ruzi, you said you wont like a song if u dont understand it, right? haha.)


Uh - la la la...

When I was heartbroken, who stayed by my side?
On whose shoulder did I shed my tears?
With whom did I share my joy?
With whom did I hold hands?
I remember.

On the night we spent apart
The moon was far away and I was crying.
On the night we spent apart
The moon was far away and I was crying.

Who taught me true strength?
Who taught me kindness?
On whose account do I walk?
Who did I want to stroke my hair?
Who didn't give up for me?
I'll never forget.

When I stray from the path, and
When the path is too long,
I was muttering to myself.
That's the way life is...

I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...
I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...

I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...
I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...

ha-a-a-

stalling for time...~*

Mood: BLEAHHHS
Music: LOVE LETTER by BoA *ALERT KAREN!!!*


come back, jasmine. come back, jas...


I didn't know econs essay can give you headache + lack of appetite + nausea + fatigue + cold hands and feet.
=(

That's how awful I'm feeling at the moment.

But well, I just completed my econs essay! YAY!!!
(to me, that's a SUPER BIG accomplishment. ;))


These days school just sucks.
I'm feeling the stress. That exams are just round the corner.
And I have a bad feeling about it.

Well, just when I contemplate to study, I MUST FALL ASLEEP.
just when I try to do some tutorial questions, my brain blanks out.

URGH.

That's it man, I'm not gonna make it.


On a lighter note, I've become the PRESIDENT of this PERVETIC CLUB thing.
haha. (though it seems like it's nothing worth celebrating. -___-)
WELL, it seems like I have a wide range of knowledge regarding the sacred subject that I daren't mention here. XD

AND, I'm on a money-saving scheme.
For what? you say.
For BOOKS. bloody hell.
Anyway, I'm survivng on biscuits currently. *sniffs*
And we're sad to the extent that ruzi and I have to share Wenshi's DATES-flavoured biscuits and her DIGESTIVE OAT biscuits.

LOL. I'm loving Wenshi's weird flavoured biscuits.
Thanks girl!! :D

Meanwhile, only Peiyun and Currypok are not in this scheme.
Peiyun CANNOT be in this scheme.
or else she'll become more than just PI2 GU3. XD
And as for currypok, ahem ahem ahem wont want to starve themselves. XD



Btw, I ran 6 rounds today.
When most of the people ran less than that. -________-"""
It rained all of a sudden. and just when I was completing my last round.
SIGH.


Alright. I know this entry is random.
but... anything to stall for time before I start work.

OOOOH. DINNER'S READY!


LOL.


IMPT: PEOPLE WHO HAVE CHANNEL 51, PLEASE TURN TO IT AT 7pm. COS NEWS WILL BE FEATURED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D



Amt of money spent today: $0.50 on a few drops of diluted coffee from the vending machine.

(striving towards <$5 spent in a month)


Jasmine, go back to who you were...
















HAHA I love this picture to death. BALLOON MAKING AT MARINA WITH MDs!!! :D:D
love our hats to death.

=)

=)

update!!~*

When the rain stops...
(photo taken by yours truly. :D)

Mood: tired.
Music: Talkin 2 myself by Ayumi



If your brain is about to be controlled
By the things reflected in your eyes
Listen to the voice in your heart

-'Talkin 2 myself' by Ayumi


Honestly speaking, I feel really really tired.
Physically and mentally.
Just this afternoon during the trip back from City Hall, I fell DEAD asleep on the train.
And my right's shoulder's aching from the heavy bag I've been carrying around.
Last night, I fell asleep right away. (usually I'll be tossing and turning around for at least 30 mins thinking of the day's events)

well, friday was INTERACT INSTALLATION and this morning's SL PROJECT @ MARINA.

so basically I missed my 10hour long sleep. XD

Friday:

I LOVE THE INTERACT FOOD COM. haha.
Pei Rong, Christine, Yilin (who couldn't be there for the celebration. :() Felicia, Shang Yuan, Rina and Wenyu (though she couldn't be there on the actual day itself) and of cos Weiting (for helping out that evening!) ^^

We had loads of fun preparing the food. haha.
and Christine's mum had been SUPER NICE. ^_^

It's really really enjoyable to work together with such a fun-loving group of girls. (ALL DAYBREAK-ers! <3)>
I think I laughed more than I ever did during Interact. :D

Yilin and Christine should be given the most credit for all the work.
Thanks girls! :D:D:D

Missed the ceremony cos we've got tons to do. ^^;;

Christine served spring rolls, Shang Yuan served fishballs, Weiting served ondeh ondeh, Pei Rong served agar agar and Rina served drinks.

and to my utmost horror, I had to serve BEEHOON. which means I'm the FIRST in the line.
(actually Felicia and I were supposed to share the job. but she had to serve the VIPs. ^_~)

So I was going "Good evening, please enjoy your meal. ^_^" all night. -__-"" haha.

BUT,

it was REALLY REALLY FUN!!

楽しいかたです！！！　=^__^=
















(group photo's with Felicia. ^^;;)

By the time I reached home, it was already 10 plus.
and I was SO TIRED.
But had to wait for my hair to dry (I don't like to use hair-dryer. ^^;;)
so I slept at around 11 plus plus.


Today:

Woke up at an inhuman time of 6 plus 7am. (okok. I mean inhuman on a SATURDAY MORNING)
I was seriously like a zombie.

LOW TENSION です！！！:(

So after fumbling with my things, I journeyed to City Hall.
It was a treacherous journey which includes transferring trains.
SIGH.

Anyway, I had a stomachache early in the morning. which dampens my mood even more.

Then everyone arrived and we walked to somewhere near Marina Square and started making balloons! :D
There could've been at least a thousand people at the HEARTSTRING WALK (including the President and the media and stuff)
So we were stationed there and sold our balloons, cards and notepads.
they're all for the SAVH. ^^

oh and anyone interested in the cards, notepads or beautiful small bottles can approach anyone from 22/07 and place your orders. thanks! ^^


Anyway, just when we're getting really good response, it RAINED.

GREAT.

we were stuck at this shelter with hundreds of people.
So we sat there and waited for the rain to stop. Meanwhile, some of us managed to get the GOODIE BAGS! (LOL) and shared the chips/peanuts/drinks/sweets among us.

and when we got really bored, we started taking pictures (while the kind souls were buying our lunch back for us. :)) Most of the group photos are with CLARRISA.



















the state we were in during the rain. Balloons (and trash) everywhere! :D



















Messing around with Clarrisa's fantastic hat.



Anyway, after that, I left for piano lesson.

and will be having a make up piano lesson on MONDAY.


~~~~~~~~~


So although the day ended with me suffering from shoulder-ache and heavy eyelids, it was pretty fun. :)

Balloon sculpturing IS fun, people. :)


Oh well. and so the happy things end here.

1.
I don't know what exactly happened because I'm not present.
But no matter what, I'll still be holding on to the hope that everything will be alright.
I'm not sure what went wrong, but definitely things will be alright.
Quarrels and fights are just a part and parcel of life.
Love, or even friendship, never runs smooth.
That's what make a friendship stronger. the bond stronger.
when we fight, we understand one another better.

We = 無限大　(infinity) [mugendai]

I've repeated that millions of times, be it in the videos I made or in this blog.
That's what I choose to believe.


2.
Yeah. I guess Karen's right. So is Tiffany.
I'll forever be pessimistic. about everything and anything.
I don't usually display it very often, but I feel it all the time.
That's the one thing that's gonne destroy me one day.

Incompetent. Ugly. Disgusting. Useless. Evil. Mean. Selfish.

is that what I see in myself?




3.
What's scary about human beings is the ability to kill without inflicting any physical harm.


4.
While we try not to be too straightforward to avoid hurting people, we're actually pretty aware of what people will tell us if they were to be straightforward.
that's scary.


5.
An occasional escapade is fine, really.
that's what I tell myself all the time.


So right now, I want to run away for a while.




Random:
I just ate SOBA with MISO SOUP.
what combination is that?!?!


Random 2:
Civics Elective sucks for me cos I suck at Digital Art.
We're supposed to use really bright colours and effects to cover up the original colours of the object.

^^;;

Ruzi's really good at it!! Singhun, Clarrisa, Kah Ying and I are like cavemen finding a computer, if you get what I mean.

Initially, I used this boring picture of a blue bottle. and now...


My result:

















alright. go ahead and laugh. -___-""

Brightdown~*

Wait a sec.

Ayu's new song 'Talkin' 2 myself' ROCKS. ok. maybe a little more than 'BRIGHTDOWN'. but just look at this.

Where the hell do you have to go

To be able to find a true smile?

- 'Talkin 2 myself' by AYUMI.

I love this song. really.

a silent cry~*

Clockwise: Tamaki Nami, Ayumi Hamasaki, BoA, Leah Dizon (sorry I have a soft spot for gorgeous girls)

Mood: Silently

Music: Brightdown by Tamaki Nami

How long more can I live...?

Currently, I'm SUPER obsessed with TAMAKI NAMI'S NEW SONG "Brightdown"

A beautiful rock song.

Totally fits my mood these few days.

Alright. I'm not exactly in the best mood for the past few days.

Life...

Sometimes it's about perspectives, really.

For me, I yearn to be stronger, more optimstic and happier.

But all are just wishful thinking, aren't they?

I think I have lost myself. So suddenly.

It's painful to live on, knowing you'll die eventually (it's just a matter of time) and then lying to yourself that you still have a lot of time left.

I yearn to tell someone everything. Everything buried deep in my heart. But once I open my mouth to speak, my heart wrenches. No sound comes out.

A silent cry.

LOL~*

what I've been watching for the whole of yesterday T^T



the funniest shit I've seen of her. hahaha.

random~*

Mood: Empty

Music: Over~across the time~ by BoA

There must be a way...

1. I'm crazy.

Spent the entire day watching the NEWS dvd for like what... 3 times?

XD

But the bad thing is that our copy will be here TODAY.

So was watching the dled version. =)

What's the good part about the dvd?

It's that there's NEWS and there's also TAKUMI!!!

There's this REALLY close-up on Takumi behind Massu.

And I nearly fainted.

K.O-ed. ^_^;;

2. I can't help but feel MIGHTY proud of myself.

hahahaha.

I managed to guess Mr Lim's horoscope CORRECTLY! ^_^

We were walking to AMK town during AJ Race.

Was chatting with Mr Lim about how stressful PW is.

Jas: Mr Lim, when's your birthday?

Mr Lim: 8th Aug.

Everyone: =________="""

Mr Lim: hahaha. okok it's about a month ago.

Jas: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE A CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

and yup. I guessed he's a Cancer. ^_^

Jas: I'm a Cancer too. And I guessed that you're a Cancer. ahahaha.

Mr Lim: Let me guess some people's horoscope then. I guess Jasmine is a Cancer!! ^_^

Jas: -______-""

and somehow Mr Lim reminds me a little of Massu and his lame-ness.

And Massu is a Cancer too! =)

So after that, Mr Lim was asking me about the characteristics of a Cancer.

Sensitive. Emotional. Pessimistic. Gentle. Home-loving etc etc.

やっぱり

私わ最高です！！！ MUAHAHAHA. =P

3.

We can't believe what we want to believe.

But instead believe what we're made to believe.

4.

Last morning while having breakfast, I discovered a large group of ants surrounding a strand of noodle on the floor.

My immediate reaction was to grab a washcloth and got ready to kill them.

Jessica: Leave them alone. They'll leave after finish eating.

I was like "what logic is that?" at first. then I thought about what she just said.

Maybe I'm really making a mountain out of a molehill.

Sometimes unhappiness envelops us.

But after sometime, they'll surely go away.

And I stared at the ants.

I was feeling sad for them all of a sudden.

They didn't know they're gonna die.

To them, they're just eating happily, oblivious to the danger around them.

Life and death are just a line apart.

Oh. and the irony of this incident is--- in the end my sister was the one who killed the ants.

-__________________-"""

5. Time FLIES.

It's already August. and very soon, it'll be the DREADED promotional exam.

but after that is WORSE. PW OP. my shit.

only after the PW OP can we truly RELAX.

Christmas! Outings with my precious ones! New year!

ok I think too far.

6. AYUMI'S NEW SINGLE WILL BE OUT ON 19/9

"TAKING 2 MYSELF"

cool title, eh? =)

*ayu chopped off her long hair. now she's having short blonde hair. (must be due to the breakup)

ahhh. my favourite of her many hairstyles.

Random:

I dreamt of NEWS concert AND Takumi.

and woke up feeling super empty.

After all the happy times, all that's left is a vague memory of them all.

My takumi~! <3

(I'll let you guess who's the main point of the picture.)

*hint hint Takumi hint hint. haha. and he's in the BACKGROUND.

click to enlarge.

My Takumi is the one with the SHARPEST nose. haha.

happy guessing!

Reply to tags:(I don't even know when to start. I'll have to change this bad habit of leaving everything to the last min. ^^;;)

Christina~* BLUSHER?!?!?! hahaha. no way girl. and those tags a few days ago ARE really random. haha. anyway, miss you, pretty. :)

Karen~* I think I'm already addicted to coffee. hahaha. ya suddenly I like BoA very much. Not sure of the reason as well. lol. anyway, our school tee looks horrible. the colours are like... haha. anyway, very long time since we last chatted. how's life? sometimes I feel grateful that both of us have blogs so that we can always keep up with each other's life. :D i hope exams can be over soon so that we can hang out. but no JP please!!! >.<

Ruzi~* haha yeah days in the school van rocks. and the PHOTO rocks. haha. I look horrible too la. somemore my specs were slipping down my nose already. That was like... 5 years ago? I still feel really blessed to be able to meet you once more. after such a long time. and end up in the same class and become good friends again. ^_^

Zuhui~* haha your tags always make me smile de. SILLY AUNTIE. XD we should really set up a new association. instead of the awful DUSTBIN ASSASSINATION CLUB. haha a new AUNTIE UNITED ASSOCIATION. XD den we can ask aunties like angela, yeeyan, serene, joyce and peirong to join. XD

Junxiu~* =) you still owe me a song, girl. haha.

Weicheng~* YAY A NEW PIANO. haha. anyway, how's life? :)

Cindy~* your BAOBEI will look 50000000 times better than mine. haha. I still remember I'm supposed to go over one day! :)

Kin~* your comments make me wanna hit you. XD

Jun~* *VOMITS* why are you always so full of yourself? XD you're horrible. and you have new haircuts like... 20 times a week???

Tiffany~* hahaha. Londoner. I miss you, girl. keep those random comments coming.

GABKT~* haha hello. =)

Clarrisa~* you know I can only associate one line with you. "Don't worry be happy". haha change la. =) anyway, where's your friend test arh? yup. these days have been really fun with you girls. =)

Serene~* you're always so BO LIAO. I still thought you changed your layout or smth. =___= hahaha. anyway, the DVD rocks. :)

Joyce~* :):) yup I love my dear KE AI JI just the way she is. I'm flawed. In fact, I'm very flawed too. But nevermind about that. yup. I feel really really blessed to have you girls with me. =) I MISS YOU, JOYCIE JOYCE!

Cat~* thanks and hello! :)

PHEW. I'm done!