Mood: SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!!!
Music: Secret (Fruits Basket OST)
If I were to rate my mood and energy level now, it's gonna be -78814786565287486202630
This morning:
Jas: God. You know what's my energy level now?
Serene: what?
Jas: It's -357
And look at the energy level now. Goodness.
I'm having a serious headache now.
Must be from all the things I studied in school.
Vectors is driving me nuts. Seriously.
Metals is killing me.
Government and governance is suffocating me.
Electronics is making me rot.
ARGH.
With absolutely zero mood to study, I really wish weekends would come quickly.
Yea I know I know about how O's is coming and how we're gonna flunk our prelims if we continue like this, but hey I need a break!
And my sister's birthday's coming.
Who has mood to study when her sister's birthday's coming? Not to forget her cousin's too?
Maybe I'm just trying to find excuses for myself but really... I feel sooo SIAN everyday!
Just like what yeeyan and I talked about.
For the first time, you don't even feel the joy in sleeping, the joy in eating.
And I used to think to sleep is the most fortunate thing to do in the whole world.
Jas: I feel like the falling leaves from the trees... Nowhere to go, absolutely no aim.
Yy and Jas :SIGH.
Well, now Joyce's replacing me as the singer of the clique.
SEE? I'm losing all my energy!
Someone please save me.
If you give me 3 days to rest, maybe I'll come back refreshed.
=)
=
=(
watever. I tink I'm losing my mind soon.
But be glad. Cos life can't get any worse.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Monochrome~*
Mood: Tired. Exhausted. Sleepy
Music: Nobuta wo Produce OST
It's only the second day of school and I'm feeling so energy-less
Seriously, I feel my energy level is decreasing every passing second.
Right now, I'm slumped in my chair, eyes half opening, fingers hardly moving to type.
=(
Yesterday
Ok. Everything was the same. Guys playing soccer, discussing about soccer, laughing about soccer.
Girls giggling over gossip, beating each other, laughing, panicking over homework.
Nothing changed. Kawaranai.
Maybe I expected something different to happen but oh well.
Received the new timetable.
Goodness. Triple Eng on Tues. Triple Math on wed.
Sometimes life sucks so much, you can't even imagine living.
Today
I woke up with such dread.
I was recalling the past, when I could do anything I like, which includes using the com from morning till night, followed by TV from night to morning.
haix.
I realize I have no motivation to work.
Perhaps I'm really tired of everything.
I thought holidays are for you to recharge?
Why is it making me feel even worse?
=(
what a depressing post.
If I were to describe my life as one colour, it's definitely gonna be white. blank. empty.
In case some people don't know why some of my usernames are 'Monochrome', guess you know it now.
Music: Nobuta wo Produce OST
It's only the second day of school and I'm feeling so energy-less
Seriously, I feel my energy level is decreasing every passing second.
Right now, I'm slumped in my chair, eyes half opening, fingers hardly moving to type.
=(
Yesterday
Ok. Everything was the same. Guys playing soccer, discussing about soccer, laughing about soccer.
Girls giggling over gossip, beating each other, laughing, panicking over homework.
Nothing changed. Kawaranai.
Maybe I expected something different to happen but oh well.
Received the new timetable.
Goodness. Triple Eng on Tues. Triple Math on wed.
Sometimes life sucks so much, you can't even imagine living.
Today
I woke up with such dread.
I was recalling the past, when I could do anything I like, which includes using the com from morning till night, followed by TV from night to morning.
haix.
I realize I have no motivation to work.
Perhaps I'm really tired of everything.
I thought holidays are for you to recharge?
Why is it making me feel even worse?
=(
what a depressing post.
If I were to describe my life as one colour, it's definitely gonna be white. blank. empty.
In case some people don't know why some of my usernames are 'Monochrome', guess you know it now.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
SHIT~*
SHIT. BLOODY SHIT.
I can actually forget!
Forget that it's my piano performance tml!!!!!!!!!!
GOODNESS.
This afternoon I was practising my piano when I stared at the calendar
AND CAME TO A HORRIBLE REALIZATION.
yes. tml's 25th June 2006.
Damn it.
All my time/dates are messed up.
My phone says it's 24th November.
My com says it's 24th November Friday.
What's wrong?!
oh no oh no oh no!
I'm so gonna DIE.
I can actually forget!
Forget that it's my piano performance tml!!!!!!!!!!
GOODNESS.
This afternoon I was practising my piano when I stared at the calendar
AND CAME TO A HORRIBLE REALIZATION.
yes. tml's 25th June 2006.
Damn it.
All my time/dates are messed up.
My phone says it's 24th November.
My com says it's 24th November Friday.
What's wrong?!
oh no oh no oh no!
I'm so gonna DIE.
Lost~*
Mood: confused.
Music: Tightrope (medieval version)
Can someone please tell me where I'm going to?
2 days left before holidays are over and the real battle begins.
Had a good chat with my sister last night.
YEAH. my sister. For the first time in so so so many years, we actually sat down and had a heart to heart.
Ok. And we discussed this really depressing topic ---> Where are you going after o'lvl?
Damn. Seriously, my mood just plunged into the drain.
We discussed all the possibilities.
Like what happens if you score well, wat happens if my score's like shit.
Jess: first, identify your interest.
Jas: err...erm... dunno.
Jess: *slaps forehead* then you'll never be able to know what you're going to do.
Jas: haix.... well, it's either language, humanities or science.
Jess: so???
Jas: ARGH. I dunno.
see?
I'm really really pathetic.
No goal, no motive, no meaning. nothing.
I feel like shit.
I dun see any light in my future.
And 99% of my relatives just want me to be a piano teacher. o.O
Jess: well, that's a choice too.
Jas: but I'll finish my piano only around 2 or 3 years later. what am I gonna do in the period of time?
Jess: then start thinking! u have a brain, u use it! simple.
my sister is not helping much.
Alright. Enough of such depressing issues.
I don't think anyone can be as lost as I am.
Damn. I REALLY feel like shit.
okok.
Anyway I feel I'm wasting my life away.
Serious. Don't you feel like that sometimes?
Sometimes I look at my sister and can't help but feel, how did she accomplish so much?
so much much more than I can?
Her career is already there waiting for her, all planned.
Her studies is going up and still very good.
Her love life's perfect.
No worries. No fears. No nothing.
The only problem with her is she's way too dark and gothic that sometimes ppl cant accept.
Like she wants to wear a pure black wedding dress? GOODNESS.
Jess: You have to make up your mind. Then work towards your goal, or you'll end up in the drain.
Jas: yea drain.
Jess: haha. why not be a PR or HR?
Jas: please. me???
Jess: Well, they're all really tall, pretty and eloquent. you can try.
Jas: PLEASE.
Jess: you're tall enough, thin enough. Just change your face.
Jas: thanks arh.
oh nevermind about it. haix.
I've decided I'll just work hard so I'll have more opportunities den decide.
I realized there're 8 days left to Yi Liang's birthday.
10 days left to sister's birthday.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really hate this. Presents! I havent bought anything! haix. T^T
I got a feeling ppl are getting bored with this blog.
I think what Raphael wrote is true.
People like to read things about gossip, love, sex etc etc.
anything but serious stuff.
oh whatever.
Anyway can u believe it?
Serene took a pic with AYU. YES AYUMI HAMASAKI's wax figurine in Madam Tussard museum.
But not bad. Seems like ayu's the only Japanese there, right? haha.
ok I'm getting really envy of her. haha.
I'm living a life with no accomplishment.
No positive things about myself.
Go. going. gone.
Music: Tightrope (medieval version)
Can someone please tell me where I'm going to?
2 days left before holidays are over and the real battle begins.
Had a good chat with my sister last night.
YEAH. my sister. For the first time in so so so many years, we actually sat down and had a heart to heart.
Ok. And we discussed this really depressing topic ---> Where are you going after o'lvl?
Damn. Seriously, my mood just plunged into the drain.
We discussed all the possibilities.
Like what happens if you score well, wat happens if my score's like shit.
Jess: first, identify your interest.
Jas: err...erm... dunno.
Jess: *slaps forehead* then you'll never be able to know what you're going to do.
Jas: haix.... well, it's either language, humanities or science.
Jess: so???
Jas: ARGH. I dunno.
see?
I'm really really pathetic.
No goal, no motive, no meaning. nothing.
I feel like shit.
I dun see any light in my future.
And 99% of my relatives just want me to be a piano teacher. o.O
Jess: well, that's a choice too.
Jas: but I'll finish my piano only around 2 or 3 years later. what am I gonna do in the period of time?
Jess: then start thinking! u have a brain, u use it! simple.
my sister is not helping much.
Alright. Enough of such depressing issues.
I don't think anyone can be as lost as I am.
Damn. I REALLY feel like shit.
okok.
Anyway I feel I'm wasting my life away.
Serious. Don't you feel like that sometimes?
Sometimes I look at my sister and can't help but feel, how did she accomplish so much?
so much much more than I can?
Her career is already there waiting for her, all planned.
Her studies is going up and still very good.
Her love life's perfect.
No worries. No fears. No nothing.
The only problem with her is she's way too dark and gothic that sometimes ppl cant accept.
Like she wants to wear a pure black wedding dress? GOODNESS.
Jess: You have to make up your mind. Then work towards your goal, or you'll end up in the drain.
Jas: yea drain.
Jess: haha. why not be a PR or HR?
Jas: please. me???
Jess: Well, they're all really tall, pretty and eloquent. you can try.
Jas: PLEASE.
Jess: you're tall enough, thin enough. Just change your face.
Jas: thanks arh.
oh nevermind about it. haix.
I've decided I'll just work hard so I'll have more opportunities den decide.
I realized there're 8 days left to Yi Liang's birthday.
10 days left to sister's birthday.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really hate this. Presents! I havent bought anything! haix. T^T
I got a feeling ppl are getting bored with this blog.
I think what Raphael wrote is true.
People like to read things about gossip, love, sex etc etc.
anything but serious stuff.
oh whatever.
Anyway can u believe it?
Serene took a pic with AYU. YES AYUMI HAMASAKI's wax figurine in Madam Tussard museum.
But not bad. Seems like ayu's the only Japanese there, right? haha.
ok I'm getting really envy of her. haha.
I'm living a life with no accomplishment.
No positive things about myself.
Go. going. gone.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Friends~*
Mood: tired cos of all the photos I uploaded. gosh.
Music: Au Revoir by Malice Mizer
Goodness. Uploading pictures really make my blood boil. haha.
The blog thing really gives me headaches.
Sorry about splitting into 4 parts. haha. It's just. in case it goes bonkers all of a sudden.
I was really excited last night.
Guess I was really slow to realize I can actually upload photos from my phone.
Oh FINE.
And the videos! too bad I cant post them here. haha.
They consist of all the craziest, funniest moments. =)
While I was looking through the photos, I suddenly realized that
unknowingly, I've created a lot of memories.
All the crazy photos of 3o8, 4o8, kissing girls, orchard, sports day, class outings, hospital, pets, christmas parties etc...
I realize all these are the things that I dun wan to let go.
My friends, all the daisetsu no hito.
=)
But soon, we'll have to fly solo towards our own goals, our own future
Separation is inevitable, but at least we shared the most wonderful moments together.
Had the same happy memories.
I think that's all that matters.
Perhaps in our lives, as we walk on, we'll gradually forget our friends, forget the times spent together, fooling around, teasing one another,
but we know that who we are today is because of what happened then.
We know we once laughed together.
All my friends out there:
As you walk on, you don't have to look back to know that I'm always there for you.
Because no matter how much time has passed, there's a part of my heart still loving all of you.
You might not know but you have made a great impact in my life.
As you grow old, graduate, enter university, work, get married, have children, I'm still there for you.
Because I feel blessed to have such wonderful friends like all of you.
I'm really really fortunate to have met all of you. =)
hahaha. ok dunno why i suddenly talk about all that. lol.
Looks like it's gonna rain.
No don't worry, I'm not gonna blabber on about how much I like rain etc etc...
haha.
ok yesterday watched 'Just My Luck' with yeeyan, serene and joyce. haha.
A not bad show. haha. pretty funny and all. =)
Tell you what, I won't be mentioning yamapi in front of you guys le. haha.
Won't want ban men nong fu in front of yeeyan right? haha.
I shall stick to my Ayumi. <3
Anyway, Ayu's gonna be #1 on Oricon chart for pretty long.
Cos the diff btw #1 and #2 is too great.
Which is Ayu and Tokio.
Tokio. hmm... Her ex-boyfriend.
Anyway, goodness gracious.
It's her 15th consecutive #1! and 27th number one single overall.
=D
Way to go ayu!
She has successfully secured her #1 position!
okok anyway, countdown to school reopen. *groans*
3 days left. shit.
Music: Au Revoir by Malice Mizer
Goodness. Uploading pictures really make my blood boil. haha.
The blog thing really gives me headaches.
Sorry about splitting into 4 parts. haha. It's just. in case it goes bonkers all of a sudden.
I was really excited last night.
Guess I was really slow to realize I can actually upload photos from my phone.
Oh FINE.
And the videos! too bad I cant post them here. haha.
They consist of all the craziest, funniest moments. =)
While I was looking through the photos, I suddenly realized that
unknowingly, I've created a lot of memories.
All the crazy photos of 3o8, 4o8, kissing girls, orchard, sports day, class outings, hospital, pets, christmas parties etc...
I realize all these are the things that I dun wan to let go.
My friends, all the daisetsu no hito.
=)
But soon, we'll have to fly solo towards our own goals, our own future
Separation is inevitable, but at least we shared the most wonderful moments together.
Had the same happy memories.
I think that's all that matters.
Perhaps in our lives, as we walk on, we'll gradually forget our friends, forget the times spent together, fooling around, teasing one another,
but we know that who we are today is because of what happened then.
We know we once laughed together.
All my friends out there:
As you walk on, you don't have to look back to know that I'm always there for you.
Because no matter how much time has passed, there's a part of my heart still loving all of you.
You might not know but you have made a great impact in my life.
As you grow old, graduate, enter university, work, get married, have children, I'm still there for you.
Because I feel blessed to have such wonderful friends like all of you.
I'm really really fortunate to have met all of you. =)
hahaha. ok dunno why i suddenly talk about all that. lol.
Looks like it's gonna rain.
No don't worry, I'm not gonna blabber on about how much I like rain etc etc...
haha.
ok yesterday watched 'Just My Luck' with yeeyan, serene and joyce. haha.
A not bad show. haha. pretty funny and all. =)
Tell you what, I won't be mentioning yamapi in front of you guys le. haha.
Won't want ban men nong fu in front of yeeyan right? haha.
I shall stick to my Ayumi. <3
Anyway, Ayu's gonna be #1 on Oricon chart for pretty long.
Cos the diff btw #1 and #2 is too great.
Which is Ayu and Tokio.
Tokio. hmm... Her ex-boyfriend.
Anyway, goodness gracious.
It's her 15th consecutive #1! and 27th number one single overall.
=D
Way to go ayu!
She has successfully secured her #1 position!
okok anyway, countdown to school reopen. *groans*
3 days left. shit.
Pictures Part IV~*
Pictures Part III~*
Pictures Part II~*
I love this pic lor!!! gorgeous sky!
I know serene's dying for this pic. haha. her bday present from zuhui! =)
A bit blurry but the day i visited Karen at hospital! =)
Sports day! Yeeyan. Me. Serene. Angela. haha.
Sports Day '06!!! cindy. Jiayi.Yeeyan.Serene.Pei Rong. Zuhui. Me. Joyce. =D
Hope. Simply gorgeous. Took this while walking to Clem station with Zoumei.
Pictures Part I~*
Whoa. This is ages ago! haha. Serene took it.
Our class noticeboard! 3o8'05!
Cindy takin a pic of me takin a pic of her.
Class outing to Seoul Garden!
Normal class day. haha. zuhui and cindy. 3o8'05YES! I finally know how to upload pics from my phone to the com. yes! *applause*
ok larh. i'm a little slow but hey at least now I know le right? so I'm gonna post many pics. haha.
someone believes in you!~*
Mood: sleeeeeeepy..
Music: Nobuta wo Produce OST
I was watching this really touching episode of NWP and realized I learnt quite a lot from it...
Sometimes, all it takes is to have just ONE person to believe in you,
you can truly feel your own existence.
Just one.
The episode is about how everyone is shunning Shuji and the only 2 ppl who stood by him were Akira and Nobuta.
Although Akira does have his reason not to trust shuji anymore but he still did. (of cos, he's YAMAPI ok? lol)
and at the end of the episode, in front of the class, nobuta asked akira and shuji to tie a rope each and when she put them together and said 'Nobuta Power Chyuu Nyuu', the ropes were linked together.
And the discipline mistress said something really touching in the show.
You don't believe in something because you saw it, but saw it because you believed.
It just takes one person to believe in let's say Vampires, and there'll be a possibility of their existence, isn't it?
You friends. Will they still stand by you and believe in you when the whole world turns their backs at you?
all it takes is one (sounds familiar, choir? =))
to believe in you. =)
Because someone out there truly believes in you, so you feel your own existence in this world.
=)
alright. enough about believing.
Regarding how much my life sucks, I read this quote from somewhere.
If you don't like something, change it.
If you can't change it, change the way you think about it!
yeah. maybe i should start changing the way i view things.
Make things seem better than they are? haha.
so ya, everyone out there! SOMEONE'S BELIEVING IN YOU! =)
Music: Nobuta wo Produce OST
I was watching this really touching episode of NWP and realized I learnt quite a lot from it...
Sometimes, all it takes is to have just ONE person to believe in you,
you can truly feel your own existence.
Just one.
The episode is about how everyone is shunning Shuji and the only 2 ppl who stood by him were Akira and Nobuta.
Although Akira does have his reason not to trust shuji anymore but he still did. (of cos, he's YAMAPI ok? lol)
and at the end of the episode, in front of the class, nobuta asked akira and shuji to tie a rope each and when she put them together and said 'Nobuta Power Chyuu Nyuu', the ropes were linked together.
And the discipline mistress said something really touching in the show.
You don't believe in something because you saw it, but saw it because you believed.
It just takes one person to believe in let's say Vampires, and there'll be a possibility of their existence, isn't it?
You friends. Will they still stand by you and believe in you when the whole world turns their backs at you?
all it takes is one (sounds familiar, choir? =))
to believe in you. =)
Because someone out there truly believes in you, so you feel your own existence in this world.
=)
alright. enough about believing.
Regarding how much my life sucks, I read this quote from somewhere.
If you don't like something, change it.
If you can't change it, change the way you think about it!
yeah. maybe i should start changing the way i view things.
Make things seem better than they are? haha.
so ya, everyone out there! SOMEONE'S BELIEVING IN YOU! =)
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Change my life~*
Mood: hmm...
Music: Bois de merveilles (sang by Gackt. Performed by Malice Mizer)
I'm obsessed with Yamapi.
Seriously. I'm in a Yamayu mood. hahaha. okok.
Yesterday was great!
Her webcam's really good. Took many hilarious photos. haha.
and recorded stupid videos. hahaha.
Jas: Music? where?
Karen: HERE. *takes out mp3 player and place in front of the webcam*
Jas: you can play in the com what.
Karen: what tokin you? how can u put mp3 player into the com?
Jas: PLAY MUSIC FROM THE COM.
by the time we were laughing so hard.
And the fan!
Blue bird! haha. it was funny la. to think we can think of all the ideas.
Fairyland was funnier. We even tried to catch the dancesteps.
Valenti. Everlasting (and all the high notes. damn). GoT. Shine we are. Jewel Song.
and of cos. MERICURI. hahaha.
I love the fried seaweed. but it's like super ex.
And the lunch Karen's mom cooked was great! =)
and I love the little gift karen gave. =D thanks so much girl! tho it looks like thai words. haha.
And I finally took back the magazines I lent karen when she went to hospital.
'Wink up' has lots of YAMAPI and KINKI KIDS and TOKIO and ARASHI and V6 and KAT-TUN stuff.
and I just realized. YAMAPI! read his interviews last night. =)
At first I was thinking of setting up another blog specially for updates on my idols
but decided against it.
It's way too ma-fan.
So it's either this one or the other one specially for idols.
hmmm...
since 3/4 of my posts are about Fruits Basket, AYUMI, doramas I watched, BoA, Gackt, visual-kei bands, movies etc etc... mayb I should close this blog instead? hmm...
But after hols I might not have too much time to blog already. haix.
Hafta wait till after o lvl.
urgh.
I want o lvl to finish quickly, but I also don't want it to come too quickly.
contradicting.
Life is miserable. Neverending tests. Life as a student of the 21st century is enough to kill.
expectations. haix.
There're times when I truly feel like giving up.
Sometimes during lessons, when I observe the class listenin to the teacher, taking notes, I start to feel, is my life going to be the same as theirs?
Nursery ---> Kindergarten ---> Primary school ---> Secondary school ---> JC/Poly ---> University ---> work---> get married---> have kids--->have grandchildren---> retire---> die.
Is everyone's life going to be the same?
work. Are we all going to do the same boring jobs?
When I go to school in the morning or peak hours, I'll look around and observe all the working ppl.
Gosh, they look so miserable, bored, tired of their lives.
Same tired faces, same type of clothes.
Expressionless. Faceless. emotionless.
Am I going to end up like that?
I want to enjoy life in sec/high school cos I wont have the chance again after graduation.
With work piling up, who has time to enjoy life?
Or even will we be able to live that long?
But now everything is too late.
O lvl's coming and there's no chance to enjoy life or do the things we truly want to do.
Life's sad.
No matter how many times we write journals or compos entitled 'My ambition',
we know the real ambition all of us wants is impossible to reach.
Instead, we have to end up doing something we're FORCED to do.
yea. human beings are pathetic.
Since when did we truly have a CHOICE?
do we have a choice where to go after pri sch? after sec sch? no.
But maybe all this only applies to Singapore students.
We lead such sad lives... haix.
ok getting really upset now.
I dun see any light in my future.
When I looked back, when I tried to go back to the past, I realized everything's too late.
Everything has been decided and planned for you since the day you're born, isn't it?
I wished I have the power to change my life...
Music: Bois de merveilles (sang by Gackt. Performed by Malice Mizer)
I'm obsessed with Yamapi.
Seriously. I'm in a Yamayu mood. hahaha. okok.
Yesterday was great!
Her webcam's really good. Took many hilarious photos. haha.
and recorded stupid videos. hahaha.
Jas: Music? where?
Karen: HERE. *takes out mp3 player and place in front of the webcam*
Jas: you can play in the com what.
Karen: what tokin you? how can u put mp3 player into the com?
Jas: PLAY MUSIC FROM THE COM.
by the time we were laughing so hard.
And the fan!
Blue bird! haha. it was funny la. to think we can think of all the ideas.
Fairyland was funnier. We even tried to catch the dancesteps.
Valenti. Everlasting (and all the high notes. damn). GoT. Shine we are. Jewel Song.
and of cos. MERICURI. hahaha.
I love the fried seaweed. but it's like super ex.
And the lunch Karen's mom cooked was great! =)
and I love the little gift karen gave. =D thanks so much girl! tho it looks like thai words. haha.
And I finally took back the magazines I lent karen when she went to hospital.
'Wink up' has lots of YAMAPI and KINKI KIDS and TOKIO and ARASHI and V6 and KAT-TUN stuff.
and I just realized. YAMAPI! read his interviews last night. =)
At first I was thinking of setting up another blog specially for updates on my idols
but decided against it.
It's way too ma-fan.
So it's either this one or the other one specially for idols.
hmmm...
since 3/4 of my posts are about Fruits Basket, AYUMI, doramas I watched, BoA, Gackt, visual-kei bands, movies etc etc... mayb I should close this blog instead? hmm...
But after hols I might not have too much time to blog already. haix.
Hafta wait till after o lvl.
urgh.
I want o lvl to finish quickly, but I also don't want it to come too quickly.
contradicting.
Life is miserable. Neverending tests. Life as a student of the 21st century is enough to kill.
expectations. haix.
There're times when I truly feel like giving up.
Sometimes during lessons, when I observe the class listenin to the teacher, taking notes, I start to feel, is my life going to be the same as theirs?
Nursery ---> Kindergarten ---> Primary school ---> Secondary school ---> JC/Poly ---> University ---> work---> get married---> have kids--->have grandchildren---> retire---> die.
Is everyone's life going to be the same?
work. Are we all going to do the same boring jobs?
When I go to school in the morning or peak hours, I'll look around and observe all the working ppl.
Gosh, they look so miserable, bored, tired of their lives.
Same tired faces, same type of clothes.
Expressionless. Faceless. emotionless.
Am I going to end up like that?
I want to enjoy life in sec/high school cos I wont have the chance again after graduation.
With work piling up, who has time to enjoy life?
Or even will we be able to live that long?
But now everything is too late.
O lvl's coming and there's no chance to enjoy life or do the things we truly want to do.
Life's sad.
No matter how many times we write journals or compos entitled 'My ambition',
we know the real ambition all of us wants is impossible to reach.
Instead, we have to end up doing something we're FORCED to do.
yea. human beings are pathetic.
Since when did we truly have a CHOICE?
do we have a choice where to go after pri sch? after sec sch? no.
But maybe all this only applies to Singapore students.
We lead such sad lives... haix.
ok getting really upset now.
I dun see any light in my future.
When I looked back, when I tried to go back to the past, I realized everything's too late.
Everything has been decided and planned for you since the day you're born, isn't it?
I wished I have the power to change my life...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Yamapi~*
Monday, June 19, 2006
Choir~*
Mood: sad...
Music: He ain't heavy, he's my brother sang by NHCHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today was ROD.
The last time the sec 4 choir members will have fun and fool around with the juniors.
At first when we came, all the sec 4s were sian. haha.
But after the scissors-paper-stone game, everyone was high-er.
And the many legged race was great!
Xinyi, Serene and I were laughing throughout la. lol.
And we won! yes we did. haha.
1-2-3-1! 1-2-3-2!
All the effort in trying to walk forward was paid off.
There were so many of us.
A great accomplishment. =)
And after that, we rested and went up to the music studio for a presentation by the juniors.
God, they were sweet. =)
I especially like the 'Our Dearest Chairman, Jasmine!' part.
Although the picture was funny, I was really touched...
And the video! I wasn't inside cos I had to attend prize-giving ceremony.
haha. but it was COOL! Serene, Zoumei, Bernice and Yuntian were inside. Mr Lai too!
The song was really sad...
And the last part on the Speech Day performance just brought back all the memories we had.
SYF 2003 (peiyu, carol, serene and I )
Chinese New Year performance 2004
Cultural Potpourri 2004 (Ber, Yun T, Zou M, Ser and I cried for like 30++++ mins)
SYF 2005 (the tense moment b4 we walked in and all the practices)
Cultural Potpourri 2005 (Close to you, frm a dist, ladybird, malay folk songs... great memories. and the 5 of us were nuts over taking photos. =D)
88th Anniversary (I remember it was on my birthday. the rehearsal. I cried so hard in the toilet cos I was so depressed about being the chairman... yea. and my 4 wonderful frends cheered me up. =))
Speech Day 2006 (one of the saddest moments. We cried for so long... and really it was Mr Lai's hug which made the tears flow non-stop...)
Haix... 4 years.
Just like the video... '4 years passed so quickly...'
Still remember ROD 2005, when the bunch of us were self-entertaining ourselves.
Tarzan and Jane...
Every year we were the one preparing, but this year we were the one getting presents. =)
I totally love the present they gave us.
I'm really gonna miss choir.
I'm gonna miss Mr Lai.
I'm gonna miss Ms Chan and Ms Ong.
Everything in the choir room...
I want to lock up memories, leaving them to be beautiful always.
YBSZ:
goodness... 4 years of time spent in choir... the time spent together between us is always beautiful.
Serene!! The first time we stepped into choir, I was always sticking to serene. Somehow we always end up together. =) SYF 2003! The two of us were the only sec 1s sop 1s who got in. She sings really really well. I mean it. Unlike me, who keeps going off-key. haha. and she taught me soo many singing techniques, and never hesitate to cheer me up when I was super upset. She's wonderful! Always there for me, supporting me, wiping away my tears, making me laugh. I love her a lot. Choir'll be so different w/o you!!
CHOUmei! Zoumei and I were sec 1 reps in 2003. That was when we started talking. And of cos everyone kept teasing her about n****** and her height. haha. but she's really not THAT short la. lol. She laughs at everything. funny and not funny stuff. None of us get what she's laughing at. all the time. But of cos, she's always supporting me. And I love her!!
Yuntian! My vice chair! haha. She really helped me a lot in all the choir stuff. Of course, we stopped calling her bimbo le. we're nice people, ok? But she never stops checking her image in the mirror. haha. And all her stupid jokes. LOL. And she's always there for me. No matter what. And the letter... Yuntian, you're so sweet! =D
Bernice! A gong KIA! lol. yes. Na-hahahaha. =D Bernice's one ultra blur person. haha. After everyone finished laughing, she'll start laughing. But of couse, she's always there to make me laugh and smile. We talked a lot and she's always there to advise me on many things. =) She's a wonderful friend! Never fail to be there for me! and Nicholas, you're really lucky! =P
And of cos, still remember the time when we went Kbox? We went totally nuts, laughing and jumping around. And the birthday presents! Those kisses you guys gave me! Those are the things I'll never forget... All the sparstic photos! When we pretended to have constipation, pretended to die and all the stupid photos we took. No matter what, I'll look horrible in all photos. Esp those with YUNTIAN and BERNICE. hahaha. And of course, when we grumbled together about so many things, when we played games outside dressing room... so many so many things... so many memories...
I love all of you. Even if we go separate ways after sec school, remember I'm always always there for you. All of you. =)
Choir!:
The speech I made today was impromptu. Now that I have time to think it through, I realize I have a lot to say.
I've watched all of you grow from young kids who screech their lungs out to mature young girls who truly sing. Again and again we've let our teachers down but we never fail to stand up again and work hard. Do you remember the times when we sat in a large circle and practised the song together? All the memories of all of you will never be forgotten. No matter what happens, remember your seniors will always be behind you, supporting you always.
And gambate for next year's SYF!
Mr Lai:
Had a great shock when Gwen told me about you leaving during September... But nevertheless, the 5 of us discussed about it and decided that if you'll be happier when you leave, that's the best decision to make. And of course, we wish you the very best from the bottom of our hearts. =)
Thanks for coming to ROD yesterday. And the 'Auld lang syne' sang by everyone. It was really touching. (although it was horribly off-key)
Thanks for the past 2 years of teachings.
You'll be the person I probably miss most when I leave choir.
It was really emotional yesterday, when they showed us the video. But in the end all of us remained strong and didn't cry. haha. Cos I know if I do start crying, I won't stop. And i don't want to ruin all the photos again!
Jas: haha. how come u nvr upload the rest of the photos?
Bernice: cos all of us cried and the photos turned out very horrible. haha.
and after all the stupid photos taken (waiting for ber and ser to upload!), we were walkin out of school when I recorded a video of them.
Yuntian: Say what?
Jas: Anything.
Yuntian: I love choir, I love choir, I love you!
Jas: haha. Hey(to serene) say a sentence about choir.
Serene: It rocks!
Bernice: I love choir!
Zoumei: I love choir too!
haha. as times goes by, we'll never forget the times spent in choir. We'll never forget each and everyone of you. =D
Music: He ain't heavy, he's my brother sang by NHCHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today was ROD.
The last time the sec 4 choir members will have fun and fool around with the juniors.
At first when we came, all the sec 4s were sian. haha.
But after the scissors-paper-stone game, everyone was high-er.
And the many legged race was great!
Xinyi, Serene and I were laughing throughout la. lol.
And we won! yes we did. haha.
1-2-3-1! 1-2-3-2!
All the effort in trying to walk forward was paid off.
There were so many of us.
A great accomplishment. =)
And after that, we rested and went up to the music studio for a presentation by the juniors.
God, they were sweet. =)
I especially like the 'Our Dearest Chairman, Jasmine!' part.
Although the picture was funny, I was really touched...
And the video! I wasn't inside cos I had to attend prize-giving ceremony.
haha. but it was COOL! Serene, Zoumei, Bernice and Yuntian were inside. Mr Lai too!
The song was really sad...
And the last part on the Speech Day performance just brought back all the memories we had.
SYF 2003 (peiyu, carol, serene and I )
Chinese New Year performance 2004
Cultural Potpourri 2004 (Ber, Yun T, Zou M, Ser and I cried for like 30++++ mins)
SYF 2005 (the tense moment b4 we walked in and all the practices)
Cultural Potpourri 2005 (Close to you, frm a dist, ladybird, malay folk songs... great memories. and the 5 of us were nuts over taking photos. =D)
88th Anniversary (I remember it was on my birthday. the rehearsal. I cried so hard in the toilet cos I was so depressed about being the chairman... yea. and my 4 wonderful frends cheered me up. =))
Speech Day 2006 (one of the saddest moments. We cried for so long... and really it was Mr Lai's hug which made the tears flow non-stop...)
Haix... 4 years.
Just like the video... '4 years passed so quickly...'
Still remember ROD 2005, when the bunch of us were self-entertaining ourselves.
Tarzan and Jane...
Every year we were the one preparing, but this year we were the one getting presents. =)
I totally love the present they gave us.
I'm really gonna miss choir.
I'm gonna miss Mr Lai.
I'm gonna miss Ms Chan and Ms Ong.
Everything in the choir room...
I want to lock up memories, leaving them to be beautiful always.
YBSZ:
goodness... 4 years of time spent in choir... the time spent together between us is always beautiful.
Serene!! The first time we stepped into choir, I was always sticking to serene. Somehow we always end up together. =) SYF 2003! The two of us were the only sec 1s sop 1s who got in. She sings really really well. I mean it. Unlike me, who keeps going off-key. haha. and she taught me soo many singing techniques, and never hesitate to cheer me up when I was super upset. She's wonderful! Always there for me, supporting me, wiping away my tears, making me laugh. I love her a lot. Choir'll be so different w/o you!!
CHOUmei! Zoumei and I were sec 1 reps in 2003. That was when we started talking. And of cos everyone kept teasing her about n****** and her height. haha. but she's really not THAT short la. lol. She laughs at everything. funny and not funny stuff. None of us get what she's laughing at. all the time. But of cos, she's always supporting me. And I love her!!
Yuntian! My vice chair! haha. She really helped me a lot in all the choir stuff. Of course, we stopped calling her bimbo le. we're nice people, ok? But she never stops checking her image in the mirror. haha. And all her stupid jokes. LOL. And she's always there for me. No matter what. And the letter... Yuntian, you're so sweet! =D
Bernice! A gong KIA! lol. yes. Na-hahahaha. =D Bernice's one ultra blur person. haha. After everyone finished laughing, she'll start laughing. But of couse, she's always there to make me laugh and smile. We talked a lot and she's always there to advise me on many things. =) She's a wonderful friend! Never fail to be there for me! and Nicholas, you're really lucky! =P
And of cos, still remember the time when we went Kbox? We went totally nuts, laughing and jumping around. And the birthday presents! Those kisses you guys gave me! Those are the things I'll never forget... All the sparstic photos! When we pretended to have constipation, pretended to die and all the stupid photos we took. No matter what, I'll look horrible in all photos. Esp those with YUNTIAN and BERNICE. hahaha. And of course, when we grumbled together about so many things, when we played games outside dressing room... so many so many things... so many memories...
I love all of you. Even if we go separate ways after sec school, remember I'm always always there for you. All of you. =)
Choir!:
The speech I made today was impromptu. Now that I have time to think it through, I realize I have a lot to say.
I've watched all of you grow from young kids who screech their lungs out to mature young girls who truly sing. Again and again we've let our teachers down but we never fail to stand up again and work hard. Do you remember the times when we sat in a large circle and practised the song together? All the memories of all of you will never be forgotten. No matter what happens, remember your seniors will always be behind you, supporting you always.
And gambate for next year's SYF!
Mr Lai:
Had a great shock when Gwen told me about you leaving during September... But nevertheless, the 5 of us discussed about it and decided that if you'll be happier when you leave, that's the best decision to make. And of course, we wish you the very best from the bottom of our hearts. =)
Thanks for coming to ROD yesterday. And the 'Auld lang syne' sang by everyone. It was really touching. (although it was horribly off-key)
Thanks for the past 2 years of teachings.
You'll be the person I probably miss most when I leave choir.
It was really emotional yesterday, when they showed us the video. But in the end all of us remained strong and didn't cry. haha. Cos I know if I do start crying, I won't stop. And i don't want to ruin all the photos again!
Jas: haha. how come u nvr upload the rest of the photos?
Bernice: cos all of us cried and the photos turned out very horrible. haha.
and after all the stupid photos taken (waiting for ber and ser to upload!), we were walkin out of school when I recorded a video of them.
Yuntian: Say what?
Jas: Anything.
Yuntian: I love choir, I love choir, I love you!
Jas: haha. Hey(to serene) say a sentence about choir.
Serene: It rocks!
Bernice: I love choir!
Zoumei: I love choir too!
haha. as times goes by, we'll never forget the times spent in choir. We'll never forget each and everyone of you. =D
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Rain~*
Mood: empty
Music: For Fruits Basket
Lyrics: For instance, even if today is painful, someday it will become a warm memory if you leave everything up to your heart. I understand the meaning our living here. It is to know the joy of having been born. Let's stay together always.
The lyrics never fail to move me.
Our meaning in living is to know the joy of being born...
That's perhaps the truest thing I've heard till now.
If today's painful, someday it'll become a warm memory...
We didn't think it's possible when we're going through the pain,
but when we look back at the painful times, they've all unknowingly become memories.
I'm feeling empty. Very empty.
I woke up today, thinking today's just another day of using com, doing assignments, watching tv, practising piano, lunch, dinner, breakfast.
I feel like a dead person.
Although this life is MUCH much better than school life, I still feel empty.
Aimless.
Where did I come from? Where am I going?
Sometimes I like to think a lot.
I had one of the best dreams last night.
Perhaps that's the reason why I'm feeling so empty now.
Sometimes I wished I could live in an ANIME or Dorama... I envy the characters so so so much...
-Watching Nobuta wo Produce last night-
Jas: Why don't they have to do homework?
Jess: They don't have any?
Jas: I mean they have time to have the 114 valentine's day thingy and they've no homework???
Jess: yea.
Jas: Oh i get it. If they have a show with REAL student life, no one will want to watch.
Jess: why?
Jas: It's all exams, homework, tests, studying, libraries. it's boring.
Jess: Yea.. haha. But maybe only local shows.
Jas: yea...
Perhaps I've yet to find the joy of being born to truly appreciate life.
It's gonna rain soon. My mood's oftenly affected by the weather.
I love rainy weathers simply because I like the idea of everything given a good wash.
A good, thorough wash to remove impurities so that for a split second
when you look out of the window after the rain, everything seems so bright, happy.
Occasionally, a rainbow will pop out.
That's the beauty of rain. =)
Perhaps it's like life.
The bad things (rain) happen to give us a thorough wash.
To perhaps wake us up from something, to show us something.
And when you feel your life just sucks, the rain stops and you truly appreciate the beauty of life.
and a rainbow will pop out. =)
No rain, can't get the rainbow
-Ayumi Hamasaki 'Rainbow'
Sometimes looking at the same thing bearing a different feeling can make you feel much better.
It's raining already. =)
Let me show you the list of idols I've had:
1991-1992 ---> Zhou Chong Qing (simply cos he hosted a children programme)
1993-1997 ---> Chew Chor Meng (He acted in many shows then and I loved him. LOL. my sister even cut out all his news)
1994-1998 ---> Jeff Chang. (at the same time, me n sis liked Jeff. We're so crazy over him, we memorised ALL his lyrics. bought all his CDs, cassettes etc)
1997-1998 ---> Leonardo Di Caprio (he acted in Titanic, Man in the iron mask, some of my favourite shows. My sis was obsessed. she bought SOOO many picture books of him. and she was only 12?)
1998 ---> Boyzone and Backstreet Boys (GOODNESS. lol)
1999-2004---> Kinki Kids, Kimura Takuya, Arashi and many Johnny's ppl (those were the days when we're so so so obsessed with them. We still like them though. =))
2000-2001 ---> GTO (haha. It was only me. I catch his show every week, watched the anime, the dorama, the movie. I just loved it.)
2004---> Hacken Lee (after watching his drama. His songs are fabulous!!!)
2000 ---> 2006 AYUMI HAMASAKI. (She's changed my life. and I'm still obsessed with her. =D)
2006 ---> 2006 Yamashita Tomohisa (Yamapi) (the dorama! it's really touching.)
and of course there's BoA, Utada Hikaru, Nakashima Mika, Namie Amuro, Gackt, Malice Mizer, lots and lots of anime.
I wonder what it's like to be an anime character... haha.
The rain stopped.
Everything looks so refreshed, though they all darkened one shade.
And the wind. It's amazing.
If my life,
If I can change my life,
I want it to be as amazing as the wind.
Music: For Fruits Basket
Lyrics: For instance, even if today is painful, someday it will become a warm memory if you leave everything up to your heart. I understand the meaning our living here. It is to know the joy of having been born. Let's stay together always.
The lyrics never fail to move me.
Our meaning in living is to know the joy of being born...
That's perhaps the truest thing I've heard till now.
If today's painful, someday it'll become a warm memory...
We didn't think it's possible when we're going through the pain,
but when we look back at the painful times, they've all unknowingly become memories.
I'm feeling empty. Very empty.
I woke up today, thinking today's just another day of using com, doing assignments, watching tv, practising piano, lunch, dinner, breakfast.
I feel like a dead person.
Although this life is MUCH much better than school life, I still feel empty.
Aimless.
Where did I come from? Where am I going?
Sometimes I like to think a lot.
I had one of the best dreams last night.
Perhaps that's the reason why I'm feeling so empty now.
Sometimes I wished I could live in an ANIME or Dorama... I envy the characters so so so much...
-Watching Nobuta wo Produce last night-
Jas: Why don't they have to do homework?
Jess: They don't have any?
Jas: I mean they have time to have the 114 valentine's day thingy and they've no homework???
Jess: yea.
Jas: Oh i get it. If they have a show with REAL student life, no one will want to watch.
Jess: why?
Jas: It's all exams, homework, tests, studying, libraries. it's boring.
Jess: Yea.. haha. But maybe only local shows.
Jas: yea...
Perhaps I've yet to find the joy of being born to truly appreciate life.
It's gonna rain soon. My mood's oftenly affected by the weather.
I love rainy weathers simply because I like the idea of everything given a good wash.
A good, thorough wash to remove impurities so that for a split second
when you look out of the window after the rain, everything seems so bright, happy.
Occasionally, a rainbow will pop out.
That's the beauty of rain. =)
Perhaps it's like life.
The bad things (rain) happen to give us a thorough wash.
To perhaps wake us up from something, to show us something.
And when you feel your life just sucks, the rain stops and you truly appreciate the beauty of life.
and a rainbow will pop out. =)
No rain, can't get the rainbow
-Ayumi Hamasaki 'Rainbow'
Sometimes looking at the same thing bearing a different feeling can make you feel much better.
It's raining already. =)
Let me show you the list of idols I've had:
1991-1992 ---> Zhou Chong Qing (simply cos he hosted a children programme)
1993-1997 ---> Chew Chor Meng (He acted in many shows then and I loved him. LOL. my sister even cut out all his news)
1994-1998 ---> Jeff Chang. (at the same time, me n sis liked Jeff. We're so crazy over him, we memorised ALL his lyrics. bought all his CDs, cassettes etc)
1997-1998 ---> Leonardo Di Caprio (he acted in Titanic, Man in the iron mask, some of my favourite shows. My sis was obsessed. she bought SOOO many picture books of him. and she was only 12?)
1998 ---> Boyzone and Backstreet Boys (GOODNESS. lol)
1999-2004---> Kinki Kids, Kimura Takuya, Arashi and many Johnny's ppl (those were the days when we're so so so obsessed with them. We still like them though. =))
2000-2001 ---> GTO (haha. It was only me. I catch his show every week, watched the anime, the dorama, the movie. I just loved it.)
2004---> Hacken Lee (after watching his drama. His songs are fabulous!!!)
2000 ---> 2006 AYUMI HAMASAKI. (She's changed my life. and I'm still obsessed with her. =D)
2006 ---> 2006 Yamashita Tomohisa (Yamapi) (the dorama! it's really touching.)
and of course there's BoA, Utada Hikaru, Nakashima Mika, Namie Amuro, Gackt, Malice Mizer, lots and lots of anime.
I wonder what it's like to be an anime character... haha.
The rain stopped.
Everything looks so refreshed, though they all darkened one shade.
And the wind. It's amazing.
If my life,
If I can change my life,
I want it to be as amazing as the wind.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Pictures~*
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Ayu screencaps add~*
ok. I give up on the stupid pics le.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/34.Ourselves.htm
OURSELVES PV SCREENCAPS
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/39.Because_Of_You.htm
ok you perverts. I know all of u wanna see ayu as prostitute rite? and the white liquid u see all the time in the screencaps is you-know-what.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/52.alterna.htm
Alterna. simply disgusting. ayu's eating eyeballs.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/50.my_names_WOMEN.htm
GOSH. how can i forget about MY NAME'S WOMEN! it's about girlpower. very inspiring.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/09.Love-Destiny.htm
Love~Destiny. she looks so young!
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/14.Fly_High.htm
FLY HIGH!
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/33.Rainbow.htm
RAINBOW. she looks cute inside. it's a little sick oso.
Dearest!
So pretty!
Dearest. look at her car. gosh.
look how big her eyes are!
evolution!
evolution!
The Omen!
a pic from M PV of ayu. oh she looks so... peaceful. lol
the gorgeous pic!!! ARGH!!!!!!!! Kyou and tohru! I love it when he grabs her hair, like he's so protective over her. =)
yamapi/Akira
a scene from nobuta wo produce
nobuta wo produce! haha
BEAUTIFUL FIGHTERS. click!
BLUE BIRD!!! gorgeous! click for a much larger pic.
ayu crying at the end of Dome Tour 2001.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/34.Ourselves.htm
OURSELVES PV SCREENCAPS
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/39.Because_Of_You.htm
ok you perverts. I know all of u wanna see ayu as prostitute rite? and the white liquid u see all the time in the screencaps is you-know-what.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/52.alterna.htm
Alterna. simply disgusting. ayu's eating eyeballs.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/50.my_names_WOMEN.htm
GOSH. how can i forget about MY NAME'S WOMEN! it's about girlpower. very inspiring.
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/09.Love-Destiny.htm
Love~Destiny. she looks so young!
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/14.Fly_High.htm
FLY HIGH!
http://www.eneabba.net/ayu/video/videoclips/33.Rainbow.htm
RAINBOW. she looks cute inside. it's a little sick oso.
Dearest!
So pretty!
Dearest. look at her car. gosh.
look how big her eyes are!
evolution!
evolution!
The Omen!
a pic from M PV of ayu. oh she looks so... peaceful. lol
the gorgeous pic!!! ARGH!!!!!!!! Kyou and tohru! I love it when he grabs her hair, like he's so protective over her. =)
yamapi/Akira
a scene from nobuta wo produce
nobuta wo produce! haha
BEAUTIFUL FIGHTERS. click!
BLUE BIRD!!! gorgeous! click for a much larger pic.
ayu crying at the end of Dome Tour 2001.
Random stuff~*
Mood: Sian.
Music:Go to the West (Saiyuki song)
Lyrics: To live for someone's sake is after all a fine skill. Its ok to be even reckless, without refusing the coming things. Embrace the courage to live through ; for your own sake
My sister's forcing my mum and me to watch NOBUTA WO PRODUCE
It's a dorama (drama) by Yamapi and Kame/Shuji to Akira
It's about how Shuji to Akira helps a poor girl transform into a well-liked person in school
It's about the beauty of their friendship, an unlikely friendship between a girl who's always bullied in school, a guy who wants to be popular (Shuji) and a hilarious guy (Akira).
Very touching show. =)
Ok another thing. I saw this SUPERBLY beautiful pic of FRUITS BASKET chapter 128!
the bad thing is blogspot isn't allowing me to bloody post it.
LOOK CAREFULLY. CHAPTER 128.
where am I? I'm only at CHAPTER 113.
GRRRRR....
But i guess I shouldn't ask for too much since I just got Book 19 in april.
Ok let me talk about The Omen. *SPOILERS*
Watched it yesterday with my sister.
It was..... haix.
At first, I did have a certain level of expectation for it, but towards the end, I just want the ending to be decent and it disappointed me again.
At certain parts, where it should be scary, it was rather comical.
My sister was laughing throughout the show.
The only good thing about this show is it's SADISTIC.
Just look at the way the people died and the ENDING. yes the ending was super sadistic.
At least, I felt the boy should've died but in the end everyone else died instead of the demon.
And the president was last seen with the boy. HAIX.
It's a depressing show with NO, absolutely no sign of hope AT ALL.
And it's not scary enough.
The only part which ALMOST freaked me out was when the crazy nanny grabbed the guy from behind.
But I was freaked cos some girls in my row started screaming.
yea. so to watch it or not is up to you.
It's NOT TOO BAD la.
and what I wrote is totally from my point of view. ^^
I'm more interested in Silent Hill, actually. =)
alright, enough of movies.
I just realized I love posting some random weird stuff.
haha.
Here's another random thing about Ayumi's newest PVs
Blue bird is simply GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love the island or where ever it was that they shot it.
It's super beautiful. the water's really crystal clear, the sky super blue and her dress just blends in. (it's white and blue)
Fits the song perfectly!
The song's a very GENKI happy summer song. I LOVED IT!
Beautiful fighters, on the other hand, was a let down.
Many people from forum commented that it was PERFECT but I felt it was just... random.
Ayu was cute in it, no doubt, but the concept's just... weird.
Perhaps cos I'm still unsure what she's singing about.
The PV's funny, but well, I'm not sure if I liked it or not.
The song itself is very upbeat, a song that'll make u dance to it but the startin and the parts where her voice's distorted are disturbing.
ok larh, to me only ba. haha.
Up till now, I still love her dark songs and PVs.
The more sadistic, the better! WUAHAHAHA.
Ayu's PV I strongly recommend:
1. OURSELVES (wuah. this is a must-watch! super sadistic! it's about anti-ayu and the dark ayu was behind it all!)
2. Alterna (SUPER SICK)
3. Ladies Night (I watched this n times and I'm not bored!)
4. Evolution (dun worry. this is not sadistic. I love it cos her has her best hairstyle. The short blonde trademark hair. she looks so cute inside)
5. Dearest (i love everything about it. It really tells u a lot about ayu's real life. it's sad.)
6. Fly High (it's a simple PV but never fails to make me feel happy)
7. M (Her best song till now. totally gorgeous)
8. Daybreak (my sis's fav. I felt it was so-so. but the song's great)
9. LOVE~Destiny (one of her really early songs and I loved it.)
10.BECAUSE OF YOU (god. I loved this song, this PV, everything!!!she's a prostitute in the PV. totally great!)
Lol. I've started becoming an Ayu fan5-6 years ago. After I got over my craze over GTO.
I used to dislike her so so so much. Her voice's so squeaky, it just gave me headaches.
But after I listened to her 'LOVE~Destiny', i've become a crazy ayu fan.
Seriously, I feel Ayu did have a great impact on me.
The way I see things. Her lyrics just linked a lot with what I felt then.
People cry when their mind agrees so much with what their heart feels and what they hear or see.
ALRIGHT. enough of Ayu.
anw, I'm looking forward to the release of SAW III.
So that I can freak everyone out with the story.
But it's M-18.
So I can only wait for the VCD. Haix.
Some really fantastic lyrics which made me fall in love with ayu's LOVE~Destiny:
Eternity really doesn't exist. I wonder when I first realized that. But I'm prouder than anyone else that the days we spent together weren't lies.
Just having met you, just having loved you, even if we can't share our thoughts, La La La La... I won't forget you.
Even cliches and meaningless words, if they're said between us, have meaning.
Just having met you, just having loved you, just having shared our thoughts... from now until forever...
I should think of you as proof that I live without taking my eyes off of truth and reality.
ahhh... so sweet. =)
Music:Go to the West (Saiyuki song)
Lyrics: To live for someone's sake is after all a fine skill. Its ok to be even reckless, without refusing the coming things. Embrace the courage to live through ; for your own sake
My sister's forcing my mum and me to watch NOBUTA WO PRODUCE
It's a dorama (drama) by Yamapi and Kame/Shuji to Akira
It's about how Shuji to Akira helps a poor girl transform into a well-liked person in school
It's about the beauty of their friendship, an unlikely friendship between a girl who's always bullied in school, a guy who wants to be popular (Shuji) and a hilarious guy (Akira).
Very touching show. =)
Ok another thing. I saw this SUPERBLY beautiful pic of FRUITS BASKET chapter 128!
the bad thing is blogspot isn't allowing me to bloody post it.
LOOK CAREFULLY. CHAPTER 128.
where am I? I'm only at CHAPTER 113.
GRRRRR....
But i guess I shouldn't ask for too much since I just got Book 19 in april.
Ok let me talk about The Omen. *SPOILERS*
Watched it yesterday with my sister.
It was..... haix.
At first, I did have a certain level of expectation for it, but towards the end, I just want the ending to be decent and it disappointed me again.
At certain parts, where it should be scary, it was rather comical.
My sister was laughing throughout the show.
The only good thing about this show is it's SADISTIC.
Just look at the way the people died and the ENDING. yes the ending was super sadistic.
At least, I felt the boy should've died but in the end everyone else died instead of the demon.
And the president was last seen with the boy. HAIX.
It's a depressing show with NO, absolutely no sign of hope AT ALL.
And it's not scary enough.
The only part which ALMOST freaked me out was when the crazy nanny grabbed the guy from behind.
But I was freaked cos some girls in my row started screaming.
yea. so to watch it or not is up to you.
It's NOT TOO BAD la.
and what I wrote is totally from my point of view. ^^
I'm more interested in Silent Hill, actually. =)
alright, enough of movies.
I just realized I love posting some random weird stuff.
haha.
Here's another random thing about Ayumi's newest PVs
Blue bird is simply GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love the island or where ever it was that they shot it.
It's super beautiful. the water's really crystal clear, the sky super blue and her dress just blends in. (it's white and blue)
Fits the song perfectly!
The song's a very GENKI happy summer song. I LOVED IT!
Beautiful fighters, on the other hand, was a let down.
Many people from forum commented that it was PERFECT but I felt it was just... random.
Ayu was cute in it, no doubt, but the concept's just... weird.
Perhaps cos I'm still unsure what she's singing about.
The PV's funny, but well, I'm not sure if I liked it or not.
The song itself is very upbeat, a song that'll make u dance to it but the startin and the parts where her voice's distorted are disturbing.
ok larh, to me only ba. haha.
Up till now, I still love her dark songs and PVs.
The more sadistic, the better! WUAHAHAHA.
Ayu's PV I strongly recommend:
1. OURSELVES (wuah. this is a must-watch! super sadistic! it's about anti-ayu and the dark ayu was behind it all!)
2. Alterna (SUPER SICK)
3. Ladies Night (I watched this n times and I'm not bored!)
4. Evolution (dun worry. this is not sadistic. I love it cos her has her best hairstyle. The short blonde trademark hair. she looks so cute inside)
5. Dearest (i love everything about it. It really tells u a lot about ayu's real life. it's sad.)
6. Fly High (it's a simple PV but never fails to make me feel happy)
7. M (Her best song till now. totally gorgeous)
8. Daybreak (my sis's fav. I felt it was so-so. but the song's great)
9. LOVE~Destiny (one of her really early songs and I loved it.)
10.BECAUSE OF YOU (god. I loved this song, this PV, everything!!!she's a prostitute in the PV. totally great!)
Lol. I've started becoming an Ayu fan5-6 years ago. After I got over my craze over GTO.
I used to dislike her so so so much. Her voice's so squeaky, it just gave me headaches.
But after I listened to her 'LOVE~Destiny', i've become a crazy ayu fan.
Seriously, I feel Ayu did have a great impact on me.
The way I see things. Her lyrics just linked a lot with what I felt then.
People cry when their mind agrees so much with what their heart feels and what they hear or see.
ALRIGHT. enough of Ayu.
anw, I'm looking forward to the release of SAW III.
So that I can freak everyone out with the story.
But it's M-18.
So I can only wait for the VCD. Haix.
Some really fantastic lyrics which made me fall in love with ayu's LOVE~Destiny:
Eternity really doesn't exist. I wonder when I first realized that. But I'm prouder than anyone else that the days we spent together weren't lies.
Just having met you, just having loved you, even if we can't share our thoughts, La La La La... I won't forget you.
Even cliches and meaningless words, if they're said between us, have meaning.
Just having met you, just having loved you, just having shared our thoughts... from now until forever...
I should think of you as proof that I live without taking my eyes off of truth and reality.
ahhh... so sweet. =)
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Seishun Amigo~*
Kame:
Mobile phone is ringing
a bad omen
"calm down,
my friend "
Yamapi
"i feel hopeless, please come and save me now
they are chasing me again
this time, I might die
My Friend"
Kamapi:
All in a sudden
the line is disconnected
yes, we are always
two in one
never have us been defeated
aren't we?
Yes, we were always
looking forward to this city
Embracing our own believes, we did our best to survive
what for we did all that??
What we see in our memories now
is what we saw when we first departed
(we want to keep) embracing everything here
Kame:
Found the dim alley finally
crouched inside
he ¡s here!!
"sorry I dint make it (to save you) in time
Sorry.. really"
yamapi:
I'm in serious injury
still remember that very day when we exchanged our promises?
though this time you couldn't make it ,
I'm still feeling very happy, cause you are now here for me anyway"
kamapi:
2 pairs of shivering hands
holding each others tightly
Yes, that time,
When 2 of us finally stepped in this city
we felt like we'd got everything
Yes, we left behind our hometown
To accomplish our wish
Gotta living with smiles
now and forever
be strong and determined, towards the future
together we work
our dream is not too far away
yes, we are always
two in one
never have us been defeated
aren't we?
Yes, we were always
looking forward to this city
Embracing our own believes, we did our best to survive
what for we did all that??
What we see in our memories now
is what we saw when we first departed
(we want to keep) embracing everything here
Mobile phone is ringing
a bad omen
"calm down,
my friend "
Yamapi
"i feel hopeless, please come and save me now
they are chasing me again
this time, I might die
My Friend"
Kamapi:
All in a sudden
the line is disconnected
yes, we are always
two in one
never have us been defeated
aren't we?
Yes, we were always
looking forward to this city
Embracing our own believes, we did our best to survive
what for we did all that??
What we see in our memories now
is what we saw when we first departed
(we want to keep) embracing everything here
Kame:
Found the dim alley finally
crouched inside
he ¡s here!!
"sorry I dint make it (to save you) in time
Sorry.. really"
yamapi:
I'm in serious injury
still remember that very day when we exchanged our promises?
though this time you couldn't make it ,
I'm still feeling very happy, cause you are now here for me anyway"
kamapi:
2 pairs of shivering hands
holding each others tightly
Yes, that time,
When 2 of us finally stepped in this city
we felt like we'd got everything
Yes, we left behind our hometown
To accomplish our wish
Gotta living with smiles
now and forever
be strong and determined, towards the future
together we work
our dream is not too far away
yes, we are always
two in one
never have us been defeated
aren't we?
Yes, we were always
looking forward to this city
Embracing our own believes, we did our best to survive
what for we did all that??
What we see in our memories now
is what we saw when we first departed
(we want to keep) embracing everything here
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Pictures~*
alice nine! another rock band.
AYUMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GACKT. one of the most popular male artistes in Japan.
My sister's crazy over him. lol.
Dir en Grey. was listening to their songs.
Used to dislike them a lot. but well, some of their songs are really not bad
ok female or male? this lady's a MALE. Mana. The leader of Malice Mizer last time.
Moi Dix Mois!!! What I mean by gothic. Mana's in the middle.
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