I'm SO not in the exam mood.
and next monday is O'level Chinese written exam.
shit.

Anyway, these days i'm not sure what am I troubled about.
I mean, on the surface, it seems everything is well
but under the surface, there seems to be an uncountable number of problems waiting for me to solve

Perhaps I'm just a few milimetres from gettin loony.

Whatever it is, I think I'm gettin tired.
tired of all these problems which just keep gettin in my way.
In my way to do wat?
I'm not too sure as well.

I'm losing my touch in certain things.
I'm not as good in handling problems as before.

whatever la...

gettin really really tired of everything.

Just finished scannin in all the class photos.
Will post them later. keep scrollin down. =)

Hmmm... a pretty sad day overall...

Anyway, this morning started off with a mock chinese exam at AVA 2.
I was tellin yeeyan how much we wrote on the reasons and so little on suggestions.
hahaha. when we handed in our compos, the tchers went through the compo qns.
yeaps, I got everything done wrongly. haha...

Den we went for reccess and I was feeling so super full from the rice and all.
den we went back to class and mdm zuraida came in to give out the hols hw for eng.
great. there are uncountable comprehensions to be completed...

Remedial schedule's out as well.
there are so many remedials but oh well...

Den we slacked for the nxt few hours.
Spent most of the time daydreaming. haha.

Btw, we received our yearbooks and class photos today.
I suck in practically every single photo in the yearbook.
haix. yes yes, I noe, that photo with ernest. lols.
just great, everyone's comin up to me and tellin me about it.

I lyk the class photos and choir photos though.
haha. though I look weird inside one of the choir pics. haha.
Spent the rest of the free time readin the yearbook and scannin the photos.

After that, mrs Wong came in and gave us an update on Avian Flu aka Bird Flu.
there was a presentation on Avian Flu and all the info.
After that, we took our class photos and finally, our report books.

Haix...

I just really really wish that she'll not transfer school...

cindy, Serene, Joyce, Yeeyan, Angela, Pei Rong, Yubin, Jiayi, Weina, Zuhui and I stayed back after school to talk and console her.
and together with Nicholas and siong Aik, we went to look for the tchers to talk to them about the matter...

but well, they really really wish to help but circumstances doesn't allow us to appeal successfully for her...
whatever it is, we really tried our best and approached all tchers we saw.
Thanks to the teachers anyway, for believing in her. =)

Now that things are lyk this, we want to let her noe one thing,

We'll never abandon her or give up hope on her.
I really believe she can do it.
It is not the end of the world, really.

and due to certain reasons, I'm startin to dislyk THEM...
being adults and all, they should at least haf sense to gather evidence b4 accusing ppl of doing things they did not even do.
for god's sake, where's the proof?

tml will be the second round of explanation to the tchers.
hopefully, they'll understand...

Please, DON'T transfer school...
we'll do our utmost to help you. =)

Tml's the last day of school b4 O'level Chinese written exam...
Shall cherish every second of tml. =)

Below is something dedicated to everyone, esp HER:

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side


Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
Noone can see into tomorrow.

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the future.
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
and you'll be able to find all that is love...

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the "future."
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

3o8 DegreeZz~! 

Th[3] [8]prit Within... [our class motto] 

I can't beat you but WE can! (our class motto) 

Class 3o8 '05 forever... 

The outing at Seoul Garden was a blast!
everyone enjoyed themselves darn lot and there was nothing but laughter. =D
Guess this is a really huge improvement rite?

anyway, the only memory of that day was a photo taken of the 3 tables of ppl. haha.
bet they didn't noe i took their pics. haha.
and oso recorded a video. haha. was lyk showin my frens cos it's super funny. =)
it rocks so damn lot. =D

Well, perhaps it was then, and now, things doesn't seem to be turnin better.
I mean, we WERE really enthusiatic and happy and all but it seems pretty short-lived, i guess.
our class chalet is a complete failure.
our class BBQ is HOPEFULLY gonna be successful.

Some people are just born this way.
get on ppl's nerves and annoy every single livin soul.
I mean, there's no need for u to go arnd and discourage everyone right?
haix. shan't waste my breath on you.

and btw, these days tension's rising.
tml we're gettin back our report book.
yea, that's it.
who will be the ones who are retained?
who will be the ones takin 6 subjs and thus unable to get into JC no matter what?

it's cruel, i noe, but sometimes things just dun go your way.

Chinese O'level in 5 days' times.
shucks.

List of 3o8 class outings so far:
1.it turned out that only girls turned up and we went bowlin and all. super fun. =)
2.BBQ at Mrs Chiang's house. It was SUPER successful. A wonderful night. =D
3.Eating at Swensons and watching Seven Swords after that. The eatin was darn fun as well but not everyone was there. the movie part was great, xcept the movie itself. lols.
4.Watched Corpse Bride and went bowling and arcade. it was OK except the movie.
5.Watched GOAL! and so many ppl pang seh us. the movie was great, but overall it was not a memorable time cos there were so few ppl...
6.Seoul Garden. It was super fun. =D

The outing at Seoul Garden was a blast!
everyone enjoyed themselves darn lot and there was nothing but laughter. =D
Guess this is a really huge improvement rite?

anyway, the only memory of that day was a photo taken of the 3 tables of ppl. haha.
bet they didn't noe i took their pics. haha.
and oso recorded a video. haha. was lyk showin my frens cos it's super funny. =)
it rocks so damn lot. =D

Well, perhaps it was then, and now, things doesn't seem to be turnin better.
I mean, we WERE really enthusiatic and happy and all but it seems pretty short-lived, i guess.
our class chalet is a complete failure.
our class BBQ is HOPEFULLY gonna be successful.

Some people are just born this way.
get on ppl's nerves and annoy every single livin soul.
I mean, there's no need for u to go arnd and discourage everyone right?
haix. shan't waste my breath on you.

and btw, these days tension's rising.
tml we're gettin back our report book.
yea, that's it.
who will be the ones who are retained?
who will be the ones takin 6 subjs and thus unable to get into JC no matter what?

it's cruel, i noe, but sometimes things just dun go your way.

Chinese O'level in 5 days' times.
shucks.

List of 3o8 class outings so far:
1.it turned out that only girls turned up and we went bowlin and all. super fun. =)
2.BBQ at Mrs Chiang's house. It was SUPER successful. A wonderful night. =D
3.Eating at Swensons and watching Seven Swords after that. The eatin was darn fun as well but not everyone was there. the movie part was great, xcept the movie itself. lols.
4.Watched Corpse Bride and went bowling and arcade. it was OK except the movie.
5.Watched GOAL! and so many ppl pang seh us. the movie was great, but overall it was not a memorable time cos there were so few ppl...
6.Seoul Garden. It was super fun. =D

Please please please please...
let the class outing on Sunday be a success...

somehow, after reading yubing's blog entry on our class
i kinda didn't fathom why I hold on so tightly to my class
she's right. our class doesn't haf class spirit.
zero. nil. nada.

it sucks. my previous class 2o5 rocks lyk hell.
our class spirit's damn damn high and everyone's united.
why. Why is 3o8 turning out to be liddat?

Maybe, just MAYBE, after time passes, the guys will be able to understand the gals and that we can discover that SOMETHING that lacks in our class.

but sorry, we dun haf much time left b4 O'levels.
there'll be hardly any programmes for us nxt yr.
no class binding activities, no musicals, no cheer com.

haix.. maybe we should face the reality that our class is really divided and there's communication prob btw the girls n guys?

I mean, hey, why izzit that girls occupy one row of tables during recess and guys have to sit way far back?

izzit me or that everyone feels that everyone else is tired of class outings?

yea, some ppl didn't even bother to reply when i asked about class outing on sunday.

and wat about the chalet?
it seems to me that there's no progress.
at all.

but i believe that the girls in class will NOT gif up on the guys in class.
so, please, let the outing on sunday be a success. everyone turns up PLEASE...

btw, i jus cut my hair.
EEEEEWWWWWW.
no progress in studyin of chinese for O'level nxt nxt mon.
trying very hard to learn the piano part for 'I will sing'. heard that, Mr Lai? hahaha. i'll continue to try my best la. =)
no progress in my studying of grade 6 piano theory for the comin exam.

nthg else worth mentioning.
my life's dull lyk math.

I didn't noe things will turn this way...
I really REALLY dislike saying 'goodbye'...

Somehow, today we just received the ultimate bad news from a tcher
there'll be ppl from our class who will not b able to promote to sec 4 nxt yr...
This news hit me really really hard.
It sort of caused my emotions to go out of control

Why must ppl leave one after another?
One yr ago, at this exact same week in the same month, I wrote an entry about separation, which is exactly what I DISLYK the most...

One yr ago, I cried cos I had to separate from my frens.
One yr later, I dun wish things to repeat themselves.

I'm really really afraid...
Perhaps there's no such thing as forever or never changing,
but I really wish to see my frens again tml in the same class as me...

3o8 '05 will always be a class which consists of 34 ppl.

No matter who leaves in the end, it'll ALWAYS be 34 ppl.

I noe separation is part and parcel of life, but somehow it hurts a lot...

This Sunday will be the last class outing we haf b4 the horrible news of the new number of ppl in class is out on monday...

It will be the most memorable outing...

Please, please... I want to believe that everything will be fine and everyone can see everyone else nxt yr...

Everyone was feeling so worried and upset today.

Although we may not be the loudest class in terms of cheering,
we may not be the most enthusiastic class during sports day,
we may not be the most intelligent class in the whole level,
we may not be the most obedient class in the whole level,
our bond is forever strong.

[Th3 8prit Within].. our class motto. isn't it?
[I can't beat you but WE can], isn't it?
[3o8 Degreezz] passion and feel the fire within us...
The one yr spent in 3o8 is forever so real and heartwarming...

Still remember the sports day, when the girls cheered lyk crazy?
the cross country when the girls shared an umbrella and cheered for Eng Ngee?
the musical, when we united and performed our best?
the cheer com, when we did the hand-piling thing together and shouted '3o8'?
the farewell party with ms Koh n Mr Tan n Ms Lin where we had so much fun eating the disgusting Twisties and the photos?
the BBQ at Mrs Chiang's house and when we sat at the alley and said ghost stories?
encouraged Kaisheng?
did the notice board together?
our class tee?
shared cold jokes?
played Murderer together?
the class photos we took that are yet to be developed?

What are all these?

These are the evidence that 3o8 exists and that it will continue to exist...

To 3o8 ppl:
Remember, we'll DEFINTELY see each other in the same class on 2nd Jan to work hard for O'level, dun forget. =D

3o8 forever~* 

the class girls.. front: angela, me, yubing, cindy. back: zuhui, joyce, peirong n weina. =) 

3o8 forever... 

I'm SOO not supposed to be here blogging
there's soooo much HCl homework, it's beyond belief.
we were even warned that if we dun complete them, our marks for EOY HCL will be deducted.
shit.

Got back all papers today except English composition.
i did OK, I guess, since I dun haf much expectations for myself anyway
I used to have goals, expectations and aims but I realized they hurt me a lot.
Anyway, i'm glad I passed English, which was the subjuct I worried the most.

Congrats to everyone who did well. =)

Anyway, I'm gettin pretty confused at many things lately.
Is it that I have changed or that the people around are changing?
I realized I'm losing the precious people in my life...
perhaps it's just what I think, but I really really hope for things to go back the way they were.
After we seperated, I still hope to remain in contact
Maybe it's probably impossible for us to be as close as before, but I feel that I really need to salvage the frenship...
maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm stupid...
but I really really hope that everything can still remain as they are...

I smiled when you forgot my birthday
I shook my head and said it's ok when you didnt reply my smses
I held back tears when I realized I have lost my place in your heart.

Perhaps life's lyk that...
People drift away as soon as they come...

and perhaps I have truly understood who are the ones precious to me.
who are those whom I will give my utmost to protect.
who are those whom I will offer my wings when they can't fly...

maybe i'm silly,
but I still hope that on my birthday nxt yr,
you'll give me a smile...

As expected, I flunked my A maths.
haha. It was no surprise, really.
E maths and HCL were better.
*heave a sigh of relief*

Tml's gonna be a tiring day.
We'll be gettin back so many papers at one shot.
continuous traumatic experiences...
haiz.

Had choir today.
stupid yuntian didn't go cos she's sick.
hey look, I'm as sick as you, or even worse.
u're gonna get it from me tml. haha.

sang 'in these delightful pleasant groves', 'suriram n hela rotan', 'I will sing' and 'four negro spirituals'
I'm sooo glad I finally have my voice back!
I keep coughing though. haha.

Mr Lai's forever thinking i'm in the toilet. haha.
and my choir frens are calling me 'manly' all thanks to him oso. haha.
Actually I'm used to being called 'manly' since tt's wat omoz all my frens call me.
hahaha. poor me.

I just realized this horrible horrible thing.
we haf to clear our lockers by... nxt week?
shit.
There is soooo much junk to clear, I probably hafta take cab again.
urgh. stupid books.

anyway, 2 more weeks to o'level chinese.

just GREAT.

I tink blogspot holds a grudge against me.
this is the 1000th time my entry got eaten up.
grrr...

going out later wif 3o8 peeps.
the last day b4 the ultimate nightmare...
yea, gettin results back tml.
i dun expect much though...

Anyway, I finally haf the strength to blog.
the day b4 yesterday was crazy.
no voice to speak, cant breathe, i felt as if I were dying...

these days nothing much happened
except for my illness worsening...

removed all mp3s from my phone and replaced with new ones and added one more.

Sometimes life doesn't work the way you wan it to be.
having ppl u dun lyk in ur life is definite
perhaps we should jus try and live on with them..

I noe that it's not completely over yet
but i dun wish to tink about it anymore...
but it does infuriate me when my frens get entangled in this kinda mess all thanks to the XX person...
but i noe i will learn to forget.
i blieve forget is more impt than forgive.
y hang on stubbornly to it?
sometimes lettin go is the best solution.
of cos it depends on how u view it...

but everything's easier said than done.

for the time being, i'll let time heal the wounds...

I hardly had strength to blog but den again, I HAVE to blog cos Karen made this SUPER SUPER cool skin!
Ayu ayu everywhere! hahaz.

Thanks gal, for all ur effort put in this. =D
Damn nice lor. I love it LOTS. =D

Anyway, I could hardly make it to the com just now all thanks to my flu, sorethroat and stomachache...
it sucks.
My flu worsened to the severe kind of flu already.
I can't breathe, can't taste anything at all.
sucky.

Nothing goes right for me at all.
Didn't even feel lyk going to sch this morning.
Was so sick, I could hardly walk straight.
haiz...

anyway, no mood for school these days...
no mood for everything...

life sucks.

except for this new blog =)

EOY is, I repeat, EOY is O-V-E-R~!

Finally, the exam that we worked hard for throughout the entire yr is so OVER!
Feeling estatic and on cloud's nine!

The burdern gone, the huge amount of stress if finally gone.

I'm finally back to blog.

Thanks to dear Karen for the new skin! thanks gal. =D

anw, ending of EOY means beginnin of Chinese O'levels end of this oct.
it also means the beginnin of nxt yr.
a whole new, stressful year.
the last yr in Nan Hua...
all the memories...

anw, hung out with the 3o8 peeps at JP.
haha. some of them had to leave cos they've gt geog exam tml.
the last paper dey'll b having. =)

No sch tml. =)

But will b hanging out with the San-bas (3o8 peeps) again tml.
So fun! =)

Ivan still haven book chalet yet. haiz. he'd better book or else we'll probably chop him up into pieces.

Anw, thanks to my sister, I can put new mp3 songs into my phone. thanks lots gal! =D

Rushing to end this to watch 'Pride'. =)

Seeya.

gosh. 3 more days to EOY. great...

Anw, I finally got my new phone le.
E640 Samsung. a really really wonderful phone. =D
with mp3, bluetooth, etc etc functions. so darn cool.
Thanks dad!!
he really surprised me.
Was studying for EOY den the phone just appeared in my life and sorta made everything seem more optimistic. haha.

Gettin pretty stressed up over EOY but I'll still slack faithfully.
I MUST slack or I'll go all looney.

Just one more week and 3 days and EOY's OVER.

alright, mayb I'm tinkin a little ahead but well, at least it cheers me up. =P


To peeps out there studying hard for EOY:

Good luck! Hope everything will turn out fine ok? Just hold on tight!

To 2o5 '04 n 3o8'05 peeps:
Best of luck alrite? We can do it! =D

To kaisheng:

U've made a difference to our lives.
a major difference to 3o8'05.
u might not noe it, but it just seems not right when u're not there, sittin with boon kiat
the class seems smaller, emptier.
all words here are from the bottom of my heart.
really really wish to see u at the chalet kz? (tt is if ivan can book FASTER)
u might not be reading this,
but I just feel I should tell everyone
how u have affected our class
how u played a major part in our class.
it's not the same now...
but we'll NEVER forget u...
Dakara kimino koto wasurenai yo... (Japanese. go figure tt out urself)

Good luck den,
'Maria' will oways b there for u. =)

Extracted from 'Open up ur mind' by MIRAI (jap singer) song featured in 'Saiyuki'

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are