oh my god. my tian. oh my. my god. I'm really gonna die la... I ended up as the Choir Chairman la. oh my la... feel so screwed up. urgh.
I mean, look. ever since I stepped into choir in yr 2003, Zhao Cen was the chair and she led our sch pretty well and she went Hwa chong jc la.. one of the top scorers. In 2004, she passed the baton to Yanchen. she led us super well lor... den she scored pretty well in her Os oso. Now, in 2005, she passed the baton over to CLaudia. She's a very good leader oso. very frenly with everyone and all. and now wat. in 2005 after cultural pot, she'll pass the baton over to Jasmine?? to me??? what the. not like I'm gonna do very well for Os or enter wateva prestigious JC. Worse still, as if I have leadership qualities.

Oh manz, feelin really horrible rite now lor... still cant blieve I'm the chairman la... somehow i tink it's pretty funny lor. I mean, i'm not up to the standard yet. Yuntian arh... y cant u be the chair?!?!

Was pretty certain it's gonna be tianz la, but in the end not. oh great. jus great. haiz... noe it's nt very nice to lyk complain about all these... well, guess there's nthg much I can do about it, since it's choir tt voted. Alrite alrite, I'll try my best to lead Choir with the help of the committee kz? no promises arh... haha.

Bleahz. btw, today had chem test and a celebration for the trainee tchers who are leaving. no, i mean left. hahaz. all the best to them. really. =) Had a party. Had many nice food and drinks. Weesze gave my plate of food to Mr Tan la. hahaz. den I ate nuggets, sandwiches n potato chips. hahaz. wanted to drink the water one lehz. but the guys lyk all drank from the bottle and gonna share with 33 ppl? lols...

Mrs chiang gonna change sittin positions. oh manz. I'm gonna miss my table mates baaaadly. she say gonna alternate girl n boy. oh pls pray hard she was jus jokin.

Dunno what Yihang did la. jus lyk kenna called many times by the guys sittin bhind to ask me to go there. dunno do wat. yihang arh.. haiz. nthg to say about him.

Maths project!!! urgh. ivan cant make it tml den kah jun arh... forget it. as for kaisheng, called him jus now den his dunno who said he's slpin. hahaz. mayb gonna try my luck later again. hey ppl, when are we actually gonna do tis proj? sianzzz...

Choir matters:
-Decide on committee meetin date.
-Plan out the rooms for improvement.
-Work out solutions for discipline matters.
-Come up with new rules for choir.
-Gonna really implement harsh rules. sorry guys.
-Get used to sayin 'Choir stand, choir greet'
-Plan the future activities.
-Get used to being the chairman.
-Unite choir.
-Learn to be firm.
-Do my best.

Committee:
Chairman- the person feelin the moz miserable in the committee
Vicechairman- Yuntian. oh manz... shld've been my position.
Secretary-Cheryl
Head of discipline-Zoumei
Head of welfare-Bernice
Treasurers- Huishan, elaine and a gurl whose name nt very sure hw to spell. very sorry!!! paiseh paiseh.
Sectional leaders- the mizerable person + Serene [Sop1]
Yuntian n Elaine [sop2]
Peiyu n Cheyrl [Alto]


Is there any way I can cheer up? my life's screwed.

today was sianz and super hot... very warm la. kept sweating lor. haiz... dunno wat's wrong with the weather. urgh. hot hot hot! Today's lessons very sian la.. nthg much happened.

English- Some grps presented the speech lor. den nthg much la. did the corrections for propasal test. then we're supposed to grade the speeches by the grps lor. and there was this tcher who came in who was formally an actress. she was observing our class lor.. but she look so fierce and stern... somehow reminds me of mdm sia. haha.

PE-zuo bo. sat at the ledge with serene, yeeyan n joyce den chatted and we went to look at our class boys play soccer/basketball lor.. nthg much. Zuhui n yubing were the only females playing basketball there. lolx. super enthu PE de. dey wanted us to join them de. but... er. forget it ba. lolx

SS- nthg oso. taught about the northern ireland thingy lor.. so sianzzz

Maths- Mrs Wong absent. so I was piaing theory for serene la. help her do. lols. do until I braincells dun haf much left le. haha. den we toked with zuhui lor.. nthg much. haha.

History- very sian la. ms khoo photocopied every grp's work except ours. what the. den I was sittin facing yeeyan den omoz fought with her. haha. serene was like saying 'dun bully my lao po'. ermz.. relax, dey nt les. haha. den we were talkin with yiting about her things so on. serene was chattin with yiting den i was discussing about 'good luck' with yeeyan. so shuai lor, kimura. =) den ms khoo lyk scolded yy twice. haha. she dui yy gt pian jian. haha.

Assembly- gosh. i was super suay lor.. sat accordin to index no today. den I ended up nxt to kathy n joyce, bhind me was bernice den infront of me was dallan n zou mei. haha. dallan arh... was driven mad by him la. haha. my voice very man meh? ya n me n yh nt stead la. he practically shouted over to the other side of hall to yihang la. what the...and ya hor, I wun teach u how to sing cos it's nt gonna work. haha.. =P

Listened to 'Tong hua' by Guang liang. 'Jiang nan', 'Dou jiang you tiao' by JJ lim, 'Forever Love' by Wang lihong. 'Yue guang' by Cyndi. now listening to forever love again. =) a very nice song.

Tml gt choir! yay. but tml gonna noe I'm chairman or vice-chairman of choir le lehz.. haiz... i sincerely dun wanna b chair la.. so sai. den dallan was like saying 'if she's chair, i'm table'. what the. ivan dey all alreadi calling me 'chairman' le lor. i sure hope not. haiz.

Later gonna go n study chem le. cant flunk it anymre. lolx.

btw, currently listenin to 'xing guang you le yuan' by Twins. very sweet song. =)

Currently listenin to Kinki's 'Rain Melody'.. damn nice song. =) btw, today was clean up day! hahaz. cos tml gt AS check ma.. den suddenly the sch lyk sparkling clean lor. so fake... lolx. Mus try to use the toilet mre these days cos nan de toilet got toilet paper. oways dun haf de lor.. so frustrating.

Today the class went nuts cleaning the class. haha. the girls cleaned the lockers, ledge, door etc. the guys cleaned window, board, fan. the worst was the tables. so cham lor.. so much liquid paper n marker ink. We used the 'milk shake' to clean the tables till my hands damn painful lor. somemore soak for too long my fingers wrinkle le. and super soapy. haha. can see I'm not those ppl who do hsewrk. =P altho liddat but quite fun la. playing with cloth and all. lolx. Btw, siong aik practically pulled down the whole fan, which hangs above my head. (or serene's or joyce's?) the wires a bit can be seen le. better b careful.

the whole class was really sparkling clean. lolx. for the first time our class shone. lolx. thanks to all our effort bahz.. =) 3o8 rox. And hor, valencia damn pro lor, left so early den yet the graffati she was involved. haha. u're gonna get it frm us tml. heehee.

now listening to 'Dakishimetai'. hmm... nice song. btw, today I saw the RV girl lor.. haha. junliang's dream gurl. =) was with a guy la.. haiz. but dunno izzit her stead or not. tt guy close to bo tak le. lolz. i tink junliang stands a good chance ba. really wanted to ask her for her name de lehz... but so damn paiseh. she super pretty lor... really. her eyes very very big den look very sweet. =)

Just now went to JEC with serene, joyce, yeeyan n zuhui to eat cos later zuhui gonna visit Angela... yeahz. den we ate there n talked about many things. hahaz. zuhui very funny lor. suddenly bcome very serious de. haha.

hope tt angela will get well soon. take care.

omg. i cant stand it la. sux soooo much, go and die la. freak. make my mood so much worse now. stupid piece of shit.

Now listenin to 'Close to you' a sentimental piano piece from 'Long Vacation', the jap drama. hahaz. now changed to the Malice Mizer song 'Yue xia ye xiang qu' hahaz. listen to tis song oways make me luff, althou it's a pretty dark about death and dolls blar blar.. but the pv oways make me luff till stomachache. hahaz. btw, u noe about Malice Mizer? they grp members all must dress up lyk vampires, dolls all these dark dark scary scary type. hahaz. People in their band must believe that Human is malicious and miserable. ok lar. 1st time saw them pretty freaked but their songs damn nice. =) Dissolved long ago le.

okok, I noe dey look pretty freaky n so on. but their songs rox. really. my favourite is still 'Au Revoir'. now listenin. very sad song.. haiz.


Tell u arh, the guy in the middle is damn handsome (nt in tis photo.) see the female with blue roses on her hair. NOPE. IT'S A HE. yupz. he's a male dressed as a female. freakingly lyk femalt la!!!

btw, wheeee. went Great World City with Serene, yeeyan, Joyce, Wee sze, Yubing, Angela n Zu Hui. hahaz. was sooo much fun. =D watched 'the pacifier' hahaz. pretty funny. lolx. den went walk walk around den took neos. haha. very funny. 8 ppl squeeze in a neo. lolx. den went bowling. very funny leh. I anyhow throw throw gt 99 points. sooo dai gou lor. Serene arh, dun kill me arh. =P

Den went home le den we ate at KFC den took cab go JE. den at JE went library to borrow a SECRETS OF AYUMI HAMASAKI book. damn nice la. very very very nice. hahaz. currently readin. whole book in chinese den fan ti zi den read till buay tahan. but I'll persevere de. lolz.

Yay. as expected, flunked Chem lor. Who ask me so stupid mix up Nitrate with Sulphate den charge all wrong lor. haiz... stupid la me. today had retest. hope can pass ba. *cross fingers*

Very sian today. nearly dozed off during Maths lessons n physics. super boring. haiz. tml worse. still gt Sia's lessons. slp le la...

Jus now doing CME proj research. hahaz. serene's com gt virus den she cant do her part. oh ya. MATHS PROJ HOW?!?!?! urgh.

Tis sat I'm freeeee! yay. finally no piano tis Sat n no theory tis sun cos FIFTH WEEK. oh man. I love fifth week. =D Really wan a class outing. reeeeallly wan lehz. wanted to go east Coast bbq but decided against it cos many ppl dun wanna go... dunno lehz... really hope there'll be this day when everyone turns up at a class outing. nt forcing anyone or wateva. I mean, jus meet up n get the class mre united oso good rite? I mean, the class gurls hardly tok to class guys lor... Just once wont kill rite...? pleeeease? hahaz.

Now listening to 'One Moment In Time'. choir ppl sure find it familiar. it's damn nice lor. hahaz.

Chem test tis Friday. haiz.. dun wanna flunk again le la.. sian diao.

Bleahz. havin breathin difficulties now. dunno who passed the flu virus to me la. These days ppl around ppl quite sick lehz. my mum, yeeyan, yihang(dun get the wrong idea), junliang, weina etc... one of them must haf passed the virus to me la.. haiz. achoo!

Today junliang very poor thing. seems very very very sick. hahaz. tis mornin he had sore throat and he bet tt he'll slp for 3 periods. hahaha. Plus the RV girl didnt come today so he not as energetic. very sleepy the whole day. lols. Today's lessons super sianz... haiz.
Chem-Gonna flunk my chem test on formulae. sure die one.. gonna prepare for retest soon... urgh.

Chinese-Did workbook lor. very sian. the trainee tchers gonna leave soon le lehz.. haiz. if they leave, lessons will b super super sian le... haiz.

English- Listened to the Bush speech and the Halle's speech. hahaz. ok la. at least no need present the speech cos our group nvr finish. =P. lazy bunch of ppl. haha.

Maths-Did the notes lo.. she still can hardly speak.oh ya, yesterday we signed on a get well 'card' for Mrs Wong. very funny. our class rox lor.. so compassionate somemore. =D

History- did SEQ with serene, yeeyan n yiting. hahaz. den we discussed about yiting's fren blar blar.. but very funny lor. cos Ivan came in late said he went to adjust uniform den jason, darrel n weixiang came in later den ivan said they oso went to do up their attire but jason was like tucked out. haha. den ms khoo wanted to punish dem de den asked chunlai to decide the punishment n chunlai didnt. hahaz. den kaisheng came in even later. he was so gong when we all luffed. hahaha.

Physics- urgh. the stupid physics test. my calculation qn prepared to get kosong de. lolx.

Choir!- sand the 'From the distance' n 'Close to you'. tell u arh, 'From the distance' rox sooooooooo much lor! very very very nice leh... hmmm... some of the lyrics 'God is watching us... from a distance. I just cannot comprehend what all these fighting is for...' cant really rmb le. nxt time get my scores den type out. haha. den it's supppper nice leh. =) very touching song about war and wanting to end the war den peace and love all these. 'Close to you'is nice oso. by carpenters. 'Why do birds, suddenly appear, everytime you are near? Just like me, dey wanna be close to you...' all those songs 4 cultural pot de. hehez.

the syf ppl will oso b singing the '3 malay folksongs' n 'ladybird'. =) gonna do our bestest!

Sincerely hope tt yuntian will be the chairman cos still tinks she's more capable den me. lolx.

Btw, I'm gonna beat kaisheng's head on mon cos he beat my head twice when i only beat him once. unfair. lolx.

Tml gonna go out!!! Great world city. wheee. when angela, serene, yeeyan, joyce, weesze, zuhui, yubing. yay. the 3o8 zha bos. haha.

Shocking news: Choir's gonns recruit 12 guys!!!!!!! gosh.

hehehez. snatch the com from my sis b4 she gets home. oso dunno where on earth she went. lolx. currently listenin to Ayumi's new song!!! 'Step you' and 'Is it love?'. hahaz. both songs pretty rock. damn nice la. hehez. but i prefer 'step you'. quite a cheerful song den makes u wanna dance along. =)

I'm not gonna get pissed with that person le. dun care.

These days pretty sian la.. nthg to do in sch de. Sch's meaningless la... haiz. Today CO went for SYF. Jiayou jiayou! but over le la. hehez. pei rong told me their instructor told them got chance that they'll get gold. woohoo~ =D

Today lessons pretty sian. started off with english. supposed to do a speech. decided to do the speech tml morning and reccess if cant finish. den PE did standin broad jump den Joyce like sooo pro la. dun lyk her. hahaz. den did pull up. very hot there den did a few cos yeeyan oso dun wan do le so i didn't do oso. haha. Den it was ss. Ms. Vidya wanted boon kiat n yi hang to sit in front so one of them will end up nxt to joyce, who's next to me and the other one nxt to shon fan. haiyo. Boon kiat snatched the seat nxt to Shon Fan. I was like shit, i dun wan sit so near yihang la! den cos boon kiat went out to take ss bk den yh slipped into his seat so boon kiat nxt to joyce. heng arh... but oso dunno y joyce n I oways get stuck with boon kiat de. he's so lame la. hahaz.

den maths lesson we did maths qn lor. nvr do finish so jus hand up liddat cos we by hook or by crook must hand in by today. but we nvr even finish doing la. dunno la.. today she lyk very attitude us lor. come in already gif us black face den cos she lost her voice so she didnt tok. den she like so fierce lor. urgh.

History was quite funny.. our class guys la. oso first time see ms khoo luff until so hard. hahaz. den it was assembly. nthg oso lor.. so sianz..

Just now took serene's car to clementi station. hahaz. serene's very nice de. lolx. den saw aileen den we went home together. den now i'm online lor. so sianzzz.

Now listenin to theme of a'nation by ayumi! hehez. ayumi rox.

tml got choir. so nice. =) look 4ward to choir.

decided not to get pissed with these kind of ppl. waste my energy somemore. u sux big time and if I were to set up an anti-u association, omoz everyone will join. u better change that freakin attitude or u'll end up hated by everyone and anione.

Now listenin to 'Eternal Snow'. a very nice n touching song. Jus came back from piano and jus cut my hair. URGH. My hair sux!!! I look like a... nerd. haiz... y oways lyk tt de arh? oways after a cut hair turn out lyk sai.

Piano played the same things lor.. so sianz. tcher gave me a new piece to play. 'Waltz a minor' quite nice la. din play scales today. yay. =) But played sightreadin instead. haiz. was at the first bar den had to play den jus anihow play lor. tcher said was ok and nt too bad. haha! =P Tomorrow theory. urgh. Haven do theory hw yet. so sianz...

Haven do sch hw oso. no mood to do hw la... sianz. nxt wk damn sian. many tests coming le. haiz... but no mood to study or do anything. feel like slping away my days.

Sometimes, I really wish to get rid of tt person lor. nvr met such an idiotic person. guess u guys all noe who i referrin to la.

To that person: I dun even care if u read tis entry. U ~~!@&#$*@%#$%#$(%(!^!#$23$5^%%(*@)$@%%$%#%5635834%#$^534^$%^$%^(@#_$@%*)#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

decided not to get pissed with these kind of ppl. waste my energy somemore. u sux big time and if I were to set up an anti-u association, omoz everyone will join. u better change that freakin attitude or u'll end up hated by everyone and anione.

Now listenin to 'Eternal Snow'. a very nice n touching song. Jus came back from piano and jus cut my hair. URGH. My hair sux!!! I look like a... nerd. haiz... y oways lyk tt de arh? oways after a cut hair turn out lyk sai.

Piano played the same things lor.. so sianz. tcher gave me a new piece to play. 'Waltz a minor' quite nice la. din play scales today. yay. =) But played sightreadin instead. haiz. was at the first bar den had to play den jus anihow play lor. tcher said was ok and nt too bad. haha! =P Tomorrow theory. urgh. Haven do theory hw yet. so sianz...

Haven do sch hw oso. no mood to do hw la... sianz. nxt wk damn sian. many tests coming le. haiz... but no mood to study or do anything. feel like slping away my days.

Sometimes, I really wish to get rid of tt person lor. nvr met such an idiotic person. guess u guys all noe who i referrin to la.

To that person: I dun even care if u read tis entry. U ~~!@&#$*@%#$%#$(%(!^!#$23$5^%%(*@)$@%%$%#%5635834%#$^534^$%^$%^(@#_$@%*)#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

URGH. I'm soo freakin pissed la. hell la.

U lyk blaming ppl so much, y not try tinkin in the person's shoes? u're so unreasonable, u go and do it urself la. blame blame blame. is that all u noe to do? Might as well dun use that brain of urs la. Oh wait, u dun even haf one? ahh. so pathetic. Insult la. insult all u wan. I dun wan to care about wat others think of us. lyk u're so great. ya right. Even an animal is far better than u la. I mean it. URGH!!!!! I'm sooooo pisssssed la!!!!!!!!!

Btw, today's sports day was fun!!! 3o8 rox rox rox!!! we're soooo enthu, we're mad! hahaz. we kept cheerin, singing n so on. sooo supportive. yay! 3o8 rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox rox!!!

sry. not much mood to write a lot. cos of that piece of shit.

Our class cheers (cheered by us)

Chewing chewin chewin chewin om papa.
aiyayaya aiyaya(2x)

dalalala (clap 2x)
dalalala(clap 2x)
repeat 4 times.

chewin chewin chewin chewin om papa.
aiyayaya aiyaya (2x)

One more time!
repeat all over.

2)
Strawberry shortcake, blueberry pie
V-I-C-T-O-R-Y
Victory victory is our cry
3/8 3/8 fight fight fight!!!

haha. the second one came frm me. super lame. used it in pri sch to cheer for Robotics team in pri4 or 5. lolz.

We took photos there. den after that, Ivan n Nicholas led us to cheer the

Who u wanna be yea? Three eight warrior!
Who u wanna be yea? three Eight warrior!
How far?

den no reply from us. we forgot. hahahaz. so xia suay. lolx. but nvm. WE ROCK ANYWAY. haha.

We did 3 cheers oso. haha. took many pics. n stupid nicholas n alvin pushed me den we fell into the front row den collasped den took photo liddat. haha. but at first we stood nicely le. den we called for ivan n alvin to come. den 1, 2, 3 we called for kaisheng together. haha. den took the photos. very nice bahz. dunno lehz.

only junliang, joyce n wee sze ntpresent. aww...

btw, still pretty pissed. urgh.

Writing this entry with my breath held. hahaz. anytime my sis would be home. urgh. so sian. den cant use com le. gonna rot. haizzzz. Today school sux. cos I *ahem* den felt lyk dying... whole day cant concentrate in class den kept puttin my head on table... recess omoz killed me. hahaz. I was soooo insane, I actually threw my wallet into dustbin! I was like holding a wrapper and my wallet on the other hand. den i opened dustbin den threw in my wallet instead. I didnt figure it out. den when I realized wat a great thing I have done, I took it out and closed the dustbin on serene's hand. hahaha. I'm so siao!

Today Band, Eldds n dance syf. jiayou jiayou! altho they have already finished their competition. wonder how they've done? hmm.. hahaz. Later gonna do my chi hw. these days really slack. haiz. dunno lehz, no mood to do anything. syf over le den felt lyk smthg's missing from my life. no goal den nthg to look 4ward to. so now hopin cultural pot come quickly n we get to perform in 88th annivesary! =)

Friday got sports dae den our class only gt 3 events? hahaz. dun even haf a class cheer lehz.. how arh? *think*

Tml really sian. all double periods. sai la. all sci somemore n still gt ss. haiz. tml gt choir!!! hehez. but ms fu teach us la. dun lyk her to teach us. oways muz half-squat n nthg good ever comes out frm her mouth. after syf tt day she only criticized us den not even a word of encouragement. haiz. nvm, i moodswing. hope she dun waste so much time for warmups. tml gonna do sectionals for the new songs we're learning. hope dey're nice. =)

today history fell asleep in the 2 mins break Ms Khoo gave us. really slept lehz. den i forced myself to wake up to finish my A maths tys cos Mrs Wong nt here today. Today ss I nearly died la. u noe y. pe slack. eng do wat proposal den our class super unenthu. yesterday's lessons sux lyk hell. cme every1 sian diao. B.lim came us and lectured us and told us do whole page of A maths TYS. super pervertic. urgh. we're nt even supposed to do so much la.

Sat got piano again. never prac. as usual la. theory nt gonna do hw, as usual. very funni lor. our theory tcher lyk ask us to do one pg of questions den we like sian diao den nxt wk come no one did. den she reduced to half pg. nxt wk come back no one do. reduced to 3 que, no one did. reduced to 1 que, no one did again. tink she wanna kill herself le. hahahaz. =P but she very nice about it. den Rachel lyk gave lame excuses of having tests. n used tt excuse for every week la. haha. den she gave up n asked us to do in class den we're very very very sian. after 45 mins or so she walked arnd to look at wat we've done. she went like, 'Hey, y u're still at the first ques?' den 'Wuah u worse arh, still at first bar?' den 'Wat? 1st note?' n of cos some superb ppl who didnt even do anything. haha. I belong to the first que ppl. =P

I love slacking. hehez. slack everyday at every single thing. but practical cant slack de. she noes wat I'm most afraid den oways make me stressed den will surely prac at home. if not muz perform for other ppl to listen. yikes. i hate doing tt. I'll go all nervous n anyhow play n make myself xia suay. had many experiences.

o shit. haven start maths proj la. haiz. tink will fail tis time. sianz. gonna rain le.

Ayumi currently no news lehz. so sad. Kimura Takuya lyk damn shuai la. in the 'Good Luck!!!' show. wuah cant tahan. nose bleed. realllllly handsome!!! *daydream*

hahaz. kk, my entry lyk very long hor. ya, writin another compo. lolx. kkz.

I love singing. I love Ayumi. I love 2o5-3o8. I love everyone!!! =)

very sian la. haiz. now listenin to 'Seasons' of ayu. so sian, can die le. tml got theory. ahhhh. booz.

Jus now piano sux la. forgot to bring exam book. lolx. tcher gave me aural. yikes. hahaz. my memory pretty bad. cant rmb wat notes she played cos mus sing back to her ma. she played arnd 5 times den i sang correctly. haha. =P

haven eat dinner yet. hungry now. lol. nthg to do la. chao sian.

Btw, choir syf over le. got silver. ok la, not much feelings. hahaz. ok le la, actually. =)

Omg. tml is SYF CHOIR!!! *gasps* Gonna jia you for tml le. Gambate choir!!!!!

Actually, honestly speaking, really lost a bit of confidence today when we were asked to sing '3 Malay Folksongs' n Mr Lai told the 'high notes' gals not to sing the 'high notes' cos we might go sharp n cant sing out at all. n if we're too frightened, hw to sing so high? n when we go to the climax, when sop 1 supposed to sing the 'E,E,G', we held back n left tt place empty. didnt sing. I was so frightened can. Really freaked. he was freaked oso. he asked us not to hold back and try our best. dun care out of tune or notz. me n huishan was like staring at each other cos no one sang and we cant sing without support. we're totally FREAKED out. The rest were ok. Sunset was ok except a few changes. Ladybird was good but we need to fish arnd 4 the note b4 we hit it correctly. urgh. my fingers turnin cold...

Den tml I'm gonna wake up at 5 to put contacts. *yawnz* den bathe n eat den 6 meet aileen at bus stop den take her car go yew tee to meet with zoumei den go sch together. Of cos mus rmb to bring gown n wear PE to sch cos need run. den bring sch u oso. of cos lotsa water. den bring specs to change and shoes left in sch locker so still ok... haiz. gettin nervous. ehh. I nvr buy stockings lehz.. haiz. nvm.. oso cant see.

Serene n Bernice gonna bring camera to take photos. lolx. can take on the way home. =) den tml gettin results arnd 1.15 lyk tt. mayb meet earlier cos will haf announcement. either tt or after sch rush 4 results. dun tink can concentrate lorz... n somemore got chi test tml lor. Sux... haiz. All sec 3 takin together. shld b bahz.. but where gt mood? ...

Today choir exceptionally tensed except at first, me, serene, bernice, yun tian, zoumei, jessie, peiyu, fengyi, lynn, amanda was lyk playin 'concentration'. ok, mus admit this lor. Sec 3 choir rox lor! hahaz. Jia you everyone!!!

Jus finished A maths hw. after dinner piaing chinese test. pretty relaxed bout test cos i'm mre freaked bout tml's SYF.. I mean, we're the 1st performin arts grp to perform n if we end up gettin *ahem* (TOUCH WOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), very pressurized can...?

No use tinkin so much lahz.. actually. Today Mr Lai wasn't like himself. the things he said.
Mr Lai: You'll definitely feel nervous, but rmb, look at me and I will be there to calm you down. Just follow what I do and you'll do just fine. I will be there, remember. So, stay with me. Stick with me...

smthg lyk tt la. pretty not like himself. haha. but it gifs us confidence... yeahz.

We'll do our best tml. Choir, united we stand, divided we fall.

5 days to SYF!!! gosh. gonna work hard le. =D Choir Rox!!! (gonna hafta scroll to the end 4 my 2nd entry today)
Btw, currently tryin to adapt to wearin contacts. wearin now. hehz. =P. realized tt without my specs, my hair will fall den very irritatin so I clipped my hair up. lolx. SYF so ma fan, still mus dun wear specs. urgh. den tis morn sis taught me to put on contacts. took quite long cos it jus DUN GO IN! freaked out by stuffin it in my eyes. yikes.
Now listenin to Ayu's 'Duty'. tis song very nice de lehz. shld listen. very cool n dark song. she dressed as a panther when she sang it. hahaz. anw, yest night was watchin Ayumi Stadium Tour with sis den went to prac piano n read FRUIT BASKET BOOK 16!!!!!!!!!!! *screams*
IT'S VERY NICE CAN?!?! haven finish readin cos nice things shld man man xiang shou. haha. But the story lyk gettin pretty complicated. but Kyou rox lor!!! he's soooo handsome den caring for Tohru!! omg!!! den he actually knew Tohru's mum lor. haha. gettin mad over Fruit basket.
jus now piano my piano tcher was like askin me play the stupid czerny for high grades for her for lyk 3 times? My fingers very frozen lehz, hw to play so fast? n the Sonatina thingy now learning the 'Surprise' symphony entitled 'Andante'. chim lor.. very very very difficult. tml got theory again. *groans* Missed one lesson n they started learnin 'Mediant and Dominant Seventh'. yikes. so fast. but could catch up cos she repeated the things. okok lar, nt much diff cos it's jus a few more rules of 7a, 7b, 7c leadin to 1 only n of cos, the usual 4-3, 6-5, 7-8, so still ok lar. now gonna start on the blar blar Bass thingy le.
Today very cold lehz. hahaz. freezin cold. was like readin the Fruit Basket bk whole mornin except playin piano. den got a few very meaningful phrases that Tohru's mum said. When i read tt part, felt lyk cryin.. so touchin...

Tohru's grandfather:People are divided as 2 grps, the useful ppl and the useless ppl. You belong to the the useless people! After u're discharged frm hospital, we'll break our relationship.

(after tohru's dad's death...)

Tohru's mum: You lied to me. People all belong to the useless group. Cos even when a person dies, everything continues. The earth continues spinning. People continue laughing. So may I ask u, who is actually useful and for whom will the earth stop spinning? no one... at all.

So meaningful lor!!! hahaz. btw, choir is workin very hard and improving a lot lehz!!! so happy! choir rox! =D


Kyou huggin Tohru!!!

Kyou n Tohru!!!!! Tohru holdin umbrella for kyou!!!

Tohru's flashback of Kyou when she attempted to rescue Kyou

He's absolutely gorgeous!!!

Kyou blushing!!! hahaz.

Tohru givin Kyou food. =)

Very blur but it's kyou holdin tohru's hands.

My all time favourite image. when kyou protected tohru frm the guys.

Kyou takin care of tohru when she fell sick... aww. so sweet.

manga version of kyou n tohru! those 2 girls r Hanajime n e other i 4got.. paiseh..

ok, all 4 of them. Kyou, the orange head, yuki, the blue head, tohru, the only gurl, and shigure!!! hahaz.

I'm sooo crazy n obsessed with Fruit Basket. but he's shuai wat. jus cant find the nicest pic which I saved ages ago. hehez.

2nd entry:
Sometimes I wonder why mus ppl lie and betray one another? I'm sick and tired of all these... I feel like changing into another person. I dun wanna be myself anymre. It's too tiring... People like to distrust one another... and control them. Why...? What have I done to deserve all these? It's torturing... things jus follow one another.

Why must they do this to me? Why must they force me into a dead end of despair and hurt? This is too much... I can't take it anymore. Until the day I die, this will continue. No one is lucky. No one can control others' lives... but for me... I need support. I need help. SOS...

Maybe being invisible is good. It is better. I come alone. I go alone.

Wish I were gone. Wish nothing happened... Wish I could stay as I was when I was young. Carefree and relaxed. Alone... Go, going, gone...

Depressed... A huge change of mood. Things have beginning has an end...

'Why am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
When will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?

I had no place to live. I couldn't find one.
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.

You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people.
I thought it was the same as being rejected.
At the time I didn't have that kind of strength.
I definitely knew too much.

I was born alone. I'll go on living alone.
I thought that surely that kind of life is appropriate...'

taken from ayumi's 'A Song for XX'

It's all over...